Queenie Edelynn Journals~

I'm back ;)

2010-07-09T10:44:00.000-07:00

Wow... i finally back to post something! I forgot how many months or even a year or longer since I last made my entry here...

Well, how've I being? 3 words descibes all: Happy, Loving, Above satisfactory!

And as in my very previous post, my dear someone special and I had come together, and we just celebrated our 1st anniversary on the past 5th.

He's probably the only and last person I'll love for this lifetime.

Someone who change his bad temper and give in alot to me.
Someone who knows what I'm thinking without me having to say out.
Someone who understands me and the inner real me.
Someone who'll worry and really take in care and concern for me.
Someone who I can trust.
Someone who had never lie to me before (despite knowing saying the truth I'll be unhappy).
Someone who compromise and behave like a little child like me

It's him. It's my dear.

Happy 1st anniversary!
A special day to mark our love...
The way we had being thru after all difficulties.
LOVE, trust, communication, loyalty :)

Edelynn is a happier Edelynn with her dear around...

有你在身旁才是真完美 ;)

2009-06-12T09:24:00.000-07:00

:(

Reading the following lyrics, you will know what happen and how i feel....

不用相信我对你表白的感受
只要知道我们是永远的朋友
我没想到你怕了我过火的温柔
别让一场相识美丽都变成丑陋

所有改变只为了进入你的世界
这情节重复了一百遍
才发现是你的心太远

曾经以为等待会改变什么
你总会属于我
但是最后时间证明了
你只喜欢我

你说我比较像你的好朋友
只是不小心拥抱着
你道歉你难过于是我给你笑容
谁在乎我的心还会不会寂寞

你拯救我的寂寞我的痛我的梦
在你的面前我不必保留

其实也想好好爱你
只怕到最后不小心让你伤心（我不怕会伤心）

对不起我对你再好再亲密都不能在一起
最后看你在别人怀里
有天我会找到我的唯一
还微笑祝福你

爱情总让人折磨

所以我们才选择做比情人更好的朋友...

Well, let fate decides then... Anyway, think thru already, im very lucky now already. Two years ago, i only have the chance to stare at him far far, but now I'm some1 close to him, atleast we can sms, talk to each other everyday, and im even the 1st person to call him every morning. Shouldnt be more greedy already ya?

I'll and I should let fate decides then...

Good luck, edelynn!

2009-06-11T03:02:00.000-07:00

A few days ago, I got very emo... After hearing Michelle's risk of suffering from High Blood Pressure, and Denise's friend just died so suddenly due to some heart problem, i felt tat life is really short. I was suffering from headache due to the hang-over the night before. And im thinking....... what if i fall asleep and never wake up? what will happen? who will be sad, regret, and cries for my leaving?

Recently also too many articles about those people suddenly fall down and died on the way to hospital, or those people died at home but no1 aware of it... Really sad.

I think.... I should make use of my blog, to declare and shows my appreciation to those friends out there, be it if they're reading anot... If really I just die like this, please, some1 please print out this page and let those whose names are mentioned below, knows their importance to me in my life.

My dearest: I dunno why I just love him so much. I guess he can never be replaced. When I'm with him, I will smile and laugh, I just feel very happy. When I received his calls or sms, my heart just pumps even faster. I apprecaite his presence in my life. I love the way he tot of me when he's free, and those attention and care. The 2carat story, please dun forget.

Jane: Our friendship grows since in Red Cross. Met many happy and excited stuffs, as well as some unhappy ones. Missed those super "on" time while chasing Chinniah for our Red Cross camps (tho till time still never hold), and wanting to take part in Red Cross Talentime. You saw me meeting my very 1st serious relationship, and walked thru me those "failed" exapmples. Really love you! Baobeii always.

Michelle Poh: Dunno why i immediately tot of your name after Jane. Maybe is the everyday-seeing-you ba? But really, you are like my big sister, and our tempo is the same... Hahaha.... Love those craziness we go thru together.

Angeline, Christine: Those days with you girls, i never failed to laugh! You girls are super! Friendly, outgoing... and pretty as well.......

Des: Woha, you are the number 1 gentleman I've met! I'm sure Jane is going to agree this too.... Rmb those times we slack at Jane's and your place? Watching "Monster besides me"? That is very classic memory... haha.... And those times......... You are really caring friend out there!

Guang: Met you at Partybox. And our friendship sails all the way till today..... And we both had changed so much huh... haha... You a Mr-good man too, same as des, but des is more "gentleman", u abit careless at times and accidentally say something wrong also dunno. Haha, but overall, not bad... Hope you meet your Miss-good gal soon! Dun drink too much everyday la!

Chole: Pretty!!! Meet up for steam-boat more! She always visit vivo for me, and always buy some nice food for me. She's a sweet lady in my heart...

Vanessa: We still contact, but our topics shared and meet-up is lesser already, maybe we're both busy... But you are some1 I know since primary school all the way till today! Cheers.

Wil: Maybe in SK, you are 1 of my bestie, but really, sometimes the way you talk, I really cant accept. But you also a very nice friend... And the classic moments with you, is those clubbing time! :)

Sherry: My ITE friend. A very good and nice gal. When I'm her classmate, she is a very nice classmate. Now im her collegues, she still so nicE! You shared my happiness and unhappiness together with me... no matter in relationhsip, family and sales... thank you!

Edwin: You always love to talk loud, but this is your true self. This is you... And you not bad la, at least still can console me after I drunk and unhappy... Hahaha...

Shaun: Sometimes I really dun understand your true-self. But most importantly is must be happy. You are some1 I can share almost everything with... And i noe sometimes although you say me very rubbish, but you never forget me! Thanks!

Sweetheart: you are last on the list, but definitly not last in my heart! Long no contact, never even see you... How are you? Are you reading my blog? :( Missed you damn much! Hope to hear from you soon. Another sister of mine.... in Partybox, and now we still in each other mind :)

The rest in my primary school: Xinyee, Chong Ling, Peiling, Xiao Hui, Xiao Ling, Sarah..... those gals out there. I still remember we hanging out at community centre, play grounds, friend's house... those were very funny and memorable memories.

The rest in Seconday school: Jereen, eliza, lee leng. Honestly speaking, i dun have much "closed friends" in sgs, maybe the closest are you 3 and jane... i dunno why, but that was the turning point of my life...

Polyfriends: Cheryl, summer, edison, weiting, don, novita... never contact since i left poly, only certain times thru msn or friendster... hope all of u are doing well. remember those times while i was in class, those laughters and accompany you people gave. Cool.

ITE friends: lee ling, winter, yvonne.... can hardly rememeber those names, but i remember we click very fast. I joined the class after some days, and fortunately i'm quite welcome by the class, haha...

Yeah....

Very emo. But now better.

Sometimes we human feels sad over some small little things. And it spoil the whole day of happiness. And sometimes a small little thing can cheer up your whole day!

Time never stop for any of us. A happy person will be happy for 24hours. A sad person???

2009-06-08T03:19:00.000-07:00

Today is my off day! Off for two days in a row, kind of relaxed...

Finally met up with my dearest last night. Intend to head for movie, but there's no midnight show available since its a Sunday...

Got abit jealous when he checked his friendster and facebook...

:(

Well, my ex started to call me again (expected, since its beginning of the month). He said many things, those unhappy things he faced in his work, financial, etc etc... But I hate him since he betrayed me. He still denying...

I should say i totally feel nothing already. But, if, if he is more persistent, and willing to explain more, and call me more often, maybe i'll... But he never, means he never care too much about relationship too...

:(

This song really made me cry or made me emo everytime i hear it... those lyrics...

我懂後来你不是不坚持, 爱情本来就没万无一失.
我想女孩子最贴心的是, 让爱的人选结束的方式.

我最幸福的事当过你的天使, ........让我们像当时拥抱最後一次.

可惜爱不是童话故事
不能够永远依赖着王子
才慢慢认识只剩两个字
我怎麽忍心为难你解释

那一阵子有你美得不像现实
多高兴每一幕都微笑着静止

想得起的事那天和你傻笑着认识是最幸福的事

Ok la, besides his thinga, I also have some happy things to share.

Month of May, Vivocity hit the shop target of exceeding 100%! Cheers...

Ater typing the above, I'm feeling emo again. Supposed to watch movie with him, but cant find those showtimes after 1030pm... And he say "next time ba"... Hmmm, dun he noe I just wannaa see him im hapy already? I super missed him, although is yesterday just saw him... But..... :(

Im confused, he's stupid.

2009-05-24T08:38:00.000-07:00

Finally blog here. Well, i'm okay already... regarding my ex thing... Now i'm moving ahead with some1 else :)

Many things changed, including me... But now, my eyes only have this special one...

Sometimes looking back at what i did, i think i'm really far too crazy into him. But fortunately, he isnt like my ex, who make use of my naive... He'll put a stop and start to lecutre me. This is what I like about him...

Its a 2yrs of crush, and now I finally have the chance to have the bonding with him... being an extreme close friend with him, and we nearly walked together... but again, due to some reasons, and some problems he's facing, he said he dun wanna drag me down, and we agreed to let nature take its course. And i'm waiting... What we did is somehow more than normal friends... the way we stick to each other, those sms and phone calls... My whole phone only have his incoming, outgoing and missed calls. I appreciate wad i wanted 2yrs ago had finally come true for me... We're best friends, and he no more keep asking me be his sister... But, I'm greedy...

I stood by his side, no matter what... Despite the fight at lunar (its not his fault), I talked to him till 5am in the morning. I even helped him to wash his shirt with blood stains... He knew I always so nice to him... and he never reject me. Yesterday night, I was super emo that I provoked him... Those words isn't suppose to come out from my mouth... I forced him to say he never loved me... Crazy me...

But he never say... He scolded me for my foolishness... and ask me to cool down and explained why he dun wan... I was totally lost last night... And divert all voice calls...

I like the way he keep calling. Because I strongly believe, if i'm an no-one, he will just ignore my maddness and will go sleep happily. I like the way he explained, tho I still dunno if that was truth or just some stupid ways to reject yet maintain a relationship with a gal... But i dun think he is not such person. Im just confused.

I like the way he is jealous, I like the way he smsed me asked if i had eaten, I like him calling to my shop and talk to me... I like the way he hold me while we were at Lunar, I just super like the way he treat me...

Kind of emo now... But, we're good now la... So, I will ask myself not to think so much! :)

我无法戒掉爱情整个世界都是你

2009-04-28T06:35:00.000-07:00

她只是无意闯入的第三者
我们之间的困难
在她出现之前就有了

I okay... At least my love for him is had already dead... I dun blame anyone, just blame my foolishness!

Im lucky, if I realised this long ago, I could have commit suicide.

After reading my post yesterday, maybe u guys will think its my retribution ba. Who ask myself flirt first... Yea? But atleast I'm all clear with this guy, only treat each other good, and full stop. I dun care how people think, cuz i always believe, my friends will definitly stand same line as me...

I hate this friend who start off blaming me.

He say: you can't blame him for stepping two boat, cuz you also........ (he carrys on in a very harsh tone while i interupt)
I say: Ya, i know...

He say: money part, why u so stupid and silly? I tot I told you before.............
I say: (honestly i couldn't remember clearly wad I said, cuz was too angry of the way he reacted)

He say: Always forever only can you say, you never wan to listen.
I hanged his call.

He sms me "Go and die".

And his sms killed a friendship.

I need a listening ear, if you aren't willingly to listen, hint me. I dun need any lecture or scolding... and worst, I hate a friend to text me that 3 words... Worst guy I ever know... Super annoyed.

Hello, blame me for? I lost money (not small amount, but i dun wan disclose, cuz it only makes me prove myself even more stupid), I lost trust, I got betrayed, I got cheated...

In my dictionary, there's 3 sentence you can never send to a friend when you are angry... It kills friendship and it hurt people deeply:

1) Go and die. (if this word come true, how will you feel?)
2) F*ck you. (friend-friend joke joke still ok, but not during quarrel)
3) Regret knowing you this friend ( damn hurting)

I admit my extra feelings for this guy, but we only very very good friends, no doubt he treats me nice, but come on, we are clear and innocent!

End of this topic.

我会发着呆然后微微笑...

2009-04-27T06:02:00.000-07:00

Hmm, how should I start blogging? Well, direct -- I realise my ex 劈腿, one leg step two boat...

Well, some people might be confuse... Isn't me and my ex Jeffery Fok (the one working at Rav) already ended long ago? Ya, so sorry to hide it all the way... The fact is: we still in the relationship, but we never meet up for like 2 months plus due to or busy schedule... To me, my heart for him already dead. But we never really mention the word "break". So, when sms or calls, he still call me dear or darling, wadever shit names...

And I admit my part too... for the extra feeling I've for another guy... so, maybe i can't blame him for stepping two boats.

After dragging these for so long, God gave me a chance to let everything ended with a full stop. And this chance also let me realised what a fool I've being.

As usual, sunday is my ex's sleeping day... But occassionally, he'll meet up with me.. So as usual practice, I called him.. No answer... Fine... Yup, then I used my spare line (hi-card number) to call him. Guess what, he answered! And he's outside, clubbing.

I used another girl's name to sms him, to see where is he... And you know what is his reply? I'm at Thai Disco with my girlfriend... wanna join?

Girlfriend? Aint suppose your girlfriend is me?? And later part, his "girlfriend" called asking me to join... without knowing i'm edelynn, his girlfriend or rather ex-girlfriend.

This is very complicated.... I couldn't blame him for stepping two boat at the same time, but... He still call me dear / darling when he borrows or take money money from me... He still joke and laugh with me.. Not long, jus a day before i realised this fact.

So....??

Taking my money and spend it with another girl? What the hell.... He'll have his retribution, and once I get the thing I wanted... I'll do all things for revenge. Forgive my evil heart, forgive my childishness. I must make him lose face, and not letting people get hurt again.

Guang scolded me for my foolishness.

Wil blamed me for being naive.

Chris said I should have realised long ago.

I regreted...

I got betrayed... I trust him so much since he say he'll change and start to save up... den? I believe him saying he's busy thats why never meet up, den?

Its money issue. Now that I dared to include his names and place or work, I already hack care him... let his reputation gone ba...

傻瓜我们都一样受了伤却不投降

相信付出会有代价代价只是一句傻瓜

2009-04-26T08:10:00.000-07:00

Oh, a super moody day... especially after some hurting sms from someone special :( looks like better now, but... I still feel kind of sad...

Would you look at someone's behavior, by judging them thru wad people say about his/her past?

I tot I won't. But not everyone stands at the same line as me...

Things finally got better, and we already moved on the a more "premier" stage, but several things stuck up in between... Oh well, oh well, looks like time and fate is playing a trick at me again this time...

Hopefully things will be better.

2009-04-14T07:37:00.000-07:00

Finally i'm posting here again!

Yeah, just finish a roadshow at Vivocity, a bridal fair supposed to tie up with the fashion show they've... My first time in-charge the whole roadshow, panic, stress and worry... Well, its over anyway... And nice knowing afew friends from various outlet! They're helpful and sweet... A good experience gain...

Always had supper cuz only manage to grab some food in the early noon, then have to busy till closing... Being more round liao la! Hmph.

Yesterday went back after returning stocks to HQ, and off today. Went to Shin Bar again, and was sooo drunk! Slept in the cinema from begining till ending while the rest were watching movie happily... Lousy me, haha...

Was quite emo tho... About a quarrel with my dearest darling... Well, should disclose too much.

The Star-shaped necklace shared about my dearest collegues on my birthday..

2009-03-26T08:48:00.000-07:00

Wad I should blog? No idea.

Be back again to blog soon, very tired...

But my mood is still happy...

Haha, u guys noe.

If this is going to be a dream only, I really dun wish to wake up.

2009-03-20T05:56:00.000-07:00

I'm very happy... ever since after my birthday.
:) know why?

I tell myself I should be contented with wad i've, and should not always think too negatively. I must cherish this all, before they disappear again.

Now, he'll sms me almost everyday.
He'll call and see where am I.
He'll concern where am I and if had reach home.
He'll ask me tag along if there's any outting.
I know, its mainly because he is treating me as his lovely sister.

I like him joking with me,
I like him keep squeezing food to me,
I like him asking if I had being angry,
I like him explaining to me and tell me sorry, although I know he did nothing wrong.
I like him alot,
I guess I really fall in love with him.
But I also know, its mainly because he treats me as his close sister.

I like it after I morning call him, he'll still check if I did fall asleep back.
I like it after I complain I've over-slept, he'll still ask if I'm late for work anot.
I like it that he ends his sms with a friendly smile :) which makes me feels close...
I like all that he did, be it the smallest things.
And I knew clearly, he will not fall in love for me... because he only treats me as his small sister.

I'm contented with this...
I'm crazy abt him...
I can do anything as long as he mention..
But, in front of him, I'll pretend that everything is very normal, that I'll do for any friends...

But, I dun like him when he says I'm a nice girl, want me to look for a good BF...
Sometimes I just wish to tell him, "to me, i dun need to find a good BF, cuz u are a perfect one!"

I dun like him introducing me to his friends that I his little sis...
I dun like him always mentioning that he's old enough to be my brother.

Anyway, hope this special friendship won't stop... :) i'm contented with you, as a friend, or brother... As long as we're not strangers!

2009-03-12T08:42:00.000-07:00

Happy belated birthday to ME! :)

This was the happiest birthday celebration I had, and the long waited for... I am really very happy! Thank you very much to those who turn up, thank you for those who remember the big day and drop me smses, I'm really very happy on the day...

Thanks for coming: Chris (initially u said u not coming, make me sad the whole day haha), Michelle Poh (might make u ver bored cuz i noe u dun like pubbing, but thanks!), Angeline (tho u stay JB so far!), Chole, Lynn, Alex, Ray (for driving them!), Daryl (nice nice to see u la!), Wil, Don, Jolin, William, Simon, Jane (i noe u are very bored too, sorry!), Wen Guang, Shaowen (surprise to see u, and really thanks!),Desmond (u guys are very tired, i noe, really appreciate!), Ah Di and Lin Jing, Vanessa, Alan, Jeffery (nv talk to u at all, haha, sorry), Ann, bla bla bla... sorry if i had left out any names...

Thanks for the shared present: Jolin, Michelle, Angeline, Sharon, Alvin Wan, Chris, Wil, Don, Simon, Marcus, Gary Heng, Janice, Mark, Lynn, Chole, Alex, Ray......

:)

I'm really very happy! Cuz i tot he wont be coming already, but he came! And its a nice night... reeally...

Headed offf to Strand Hotel with IMM collegues... Played Heart Attack, and was super tired that I fall asleep, so sorry...

next day, had some drinkin with Chris, for 2 days... Enjoyable ones, cuz im more talkative already, :) yup, not forgetting des, for the dinner treat and ice-cream! :d

Last... thanks those who is thoughtful, and plan the day for me, and went down for me. I really appreciate.

2009-03-03T07:51:00.000-08:00

Turning 21st in 6days time... which means, I'm growing more mature, no more kiddy, no more childish, have to be more responsible, and growing adult!

I have to think of 21 wishes for my birthday...

2009-03-02T07:29:00.000-08:00

TO THE BASTARD WHO IS READING THIS:

I HATE YOU TO BITS!

I DUN THINK I DESERVE THIS TREATEMENT BY YOU, SERIOUS NO! GO AND FIND ANOTHER WOMAN WHO GIVES YOU MONEY EVERY MONTH, GO AND FIND ONE WHO CAN LET YOU BEAT AND SCOLD, VENT ANGER WHEN YOU ARE UNHAPPY! SIMPLY HATE YOU TO BITS!

I REALLY REGRET DOING SO MUCH THINGS TO YOU!

3 YEARS... AND THIS IS WHAT I GET.

YEAH, I'VE FALL FOR ANOTHER GUY, NOT CUZ I'M NOT FAITHFUL, BUT YOU HAD NOT DO YOUR PART WELL AS A BF! YOU SUCKS AS A BF!

GAMBLE, GAMBLE, ALWAYS NO MONEY... WANT TO TAKE OWN GF'S MONTHLY SALARY... HAVE TO STEAL UR OWN MOTHER'S MONEY. AND YET, I'VE ACCEPTED YOU FOR WHO YOU ARE!

WHEN A BETTER CHOICE COME, I NEVER GO... I STILL HOPE YOU WILL CHANGE. BUT, WHAT I GET IS A MIA, AND A BETRAY!

I KNOW YOU HAD BEING READING MY BLOG FOR ALL ALONG!

GOOD! I WANT TO LET YOU KNOW, AND THE WHOLE WORLD KNOW!

YOU ARE A BASTARD! A ASS-HOLE! YOU LIVE OTHER WOMEN SKIRT! COWARD!

GO AND FIND OTHER 1 WHO CAN ACCEPT YOU, CAN GIVE YOU MONEY WITHOUT 2ND WORD, CAN LET YOU VENT YOUR ANGER... IF YOU CAN FIND, GOOD!

THANKS FOR YOUR MIA, YOUR BETRAYAL, AND UR LEAVE... THANKS FOR THIS ADVANCE BDAY GIFT... ITS THE BEST PRESENT FROM YOU...

NOW, JUST F'CK OFF FROM MY LIFE.

2009-02-28T07:31:00.000-08:00

*1st: I've make some edit for prev post, many ppl complain cannot read...

It doesnt take a reason to love someone,but it does to like someone.
You dun love someone because you want to,you love someone because you are destined to.
It's because you fall in Love with them, that you then try to find a reason,
but you always come up with the answer, No reason...

No one is perfect until U fall in love with them.

U might know how terrible, how nasty they are, and yet, you still can happily accept it.

Sometimes, people say you are stupid, foolish, no standard, useless... But, you are still so devoted to that person you love. This is call LOVE, not like anymore... Because it exceeds the extent to like someone.

"He always had mood-swing, this is what I told myself. Cuz I really can't think of reasons why he suddenly ignore me, talk to me in a nasty way, and sometimes treating me nicely. But at times, I'll still apologise to him, thinking that there might be some misunderstanding somewhere, that somewhere I spoke something wrong". A girl said.

Her close friends were shock at the way she gives in some much to this guy. She isn't stupid, isn't silly... She just love him so much that, she can accept him in different ways.

"I dun wan anything from him, I just want to be with him, maybe by his side, knowing how is he doing. He might know my existence, or not, its okay... I just want to ensure he is happy!" another girl said.

Yes! There's still such love exist. Love some1 u dun have to be with him or her... Its true that just being besides them, even being their buddy, god-sis, god-bro, u will be more than happy. Of course, it cant be compare with being their official BF or GF. But its okay.

How do you view the word LOVE?

I strongly believe that LOVE someone, you'll accept who he is, and how he treat you. Even if he everyday show you black face, scold you for no reason, and had bad name among his friends, your love for him will not fade. You'll have faith with him, and hopefully he'll be touch by your persistence.

But of course, you must know your limit!

Hmm... things got alittle better, hope will goes back to normal like last time, tho might be alittle hard. I'm quite shock about my persistence too... But at least, I've won back something, altho still somehow feels different...

Yea, last day of Feb, new month, new hope. Hope everything gets better. Counting down to be 21st years old! :D

2009-02-20T07:15:00.000-08:00

Suppose to be a nice and fun day, but it turn out to be a bad day just because of my joke. Why do I bother so much? Why do I care so much? I hate all that I did for today.

Des says, I think too much.
Wil says, I give in too much.

My two best buddy said these to me... Yea, they're right, this is the biggest problem of mine. But, to whom I will also care alot de, not jus him... I feel sad instead of angry, :( Even now... Cuz some1 specially dig out time to meet you for movie as promised, altho he is busy shifting house. And even, having a bad cold too... But i jus joke... Well, no more next time.

I appreciate you giving me morning calls almost every morning after we met for drinks at night.
I appreciate you buying me coffee to keep myself awake.
I appreciate you wishing me Happy Valentines Day.
I appreciate you joking with me and make me laugh.
I appreciate you remember what I had said.
I appreciate you treating me good openly infront of the others.
I appreciate you coming all the way down just to smoke and go back.
I appreciate your gentleman ways.
I appreciate your nice sms that filled me with happiness.

I like you helping me to order food.

I like you telling me jokes and make me laugh.

I like you taking initiative to help me with things.

I like your teasing.

I like you walking with me from Chinatown to Boat Quay.

I like you asking me tag along wherever you all go.

I like you being different with other people.

I like your lameness.

i like all the things you did for me.

I like all that I appreciate.

I appreciate all I like.

As I post in my facebook, "Edelynn is actually a very lucky girl......" Yup, since in secondary school, I will always have the chance to spend quality time, to have some conversation or special memories, although we will not end up like boyfriend, girlfriend... From David to Shaowen in Sec. School, Teck Wee in NYP, Marc in ITE, and lastly Chris.. haha, not bad, i'm really lucky already..

My suprise Valentines Day present! Haha...

Look at the Kitty! Not me! The red face after finishing half bottle of Black label on my own...

Back to few weeks ago... Picx taken at Kbox...

Me three bestie: Sim Boon Kwang, Blue Chocolate and Taxi-door :)

Look at his face! "Wan-laugh-dun-laugh" liktat... Haha :p

My turn, laugh till so happy, haha :D

Why is Guang so happy??

I quite like this picx... Like mama and children, hee~~

Looks so serious, apa la.. crop away Guang's sleepy face!

Now, Dragonfly's photo,

And some random...

Michelle's kid, 1 cute, 1 obedient... :)

After I finish with the above, I receieved his sms... Hope things are ok already...

早习惯穿梭充满诱惑的黑夜, 但却无法忘记你的脸

遇到对的人是种缘分,我不得不承认

女生还是该要有分寸,你要去瞄准你要的人

不再被动的等,送上嘴唇变成你的人.

我认识一个女孩她天真活泼可爱

在等待有个人,可以给她一身三千宠爱

不需要很有钱不需要很帅

她脾气古怪有时候包容有时候你必须忍耐

为什么她竟然爱上他?? 她到底在想什么

她是否忘了帅哥不能爱

是什么让她乱了方寸

不知道该做什么, 我想说这怎么可能

她舍得舍弃自己的尊严与爱好

Title: Say you Love me

Got to know this song from Jia Wei, felt tat it somehow fits nicely for me... Haha...

Good night, dear all...

2009-02-19T23:53:00.000-08:00

For the past 2 weeks, spent almost 80% of my time after work - drinking, pubbing, drinking... :(

Well, month of Feb isn't really good... Received complain letter complaining me... Sales not so fantastic also.

Just let me upload some pics first! :)

The new heels, makes my leg so super pain! But it really walks with me thru happiest moments :)

Gathering with Van and Ann at Dong Ba..

With Van and Wilson, boss of the place...

With Kevilia and Van...

More photos to be upload again...

2009-02-15T08:04:00.000-08:00

Sometimes thru friendster or facebook, you can find out quite many things about someone. But, that is really a no nice feeling after u saw or discover them.

I'm emo again.

Had quite many interesting things happened, mostly are happy things for me! But my current mood, I dun really feel like sharing :( Forgive me!

Today is 15th, last day of exhibition at Vivo, so stay up quite late in shop waiting for them to pack up. But still ok la... at least earlier than wad we expect.

I feel empty now...

Help me!!!

2009-02-03T07:33:00.000-08:00

Being real busy lately, and now finally able to have 10mins of free time. Ya, just 10mins... Got to update somethi first, but not upload photos cuz i only have 10mins.

Yesterday (2-2-09) is a bad day. Had received 3 bad news and worst, I made my friend very very angry :( Jus cuz of my stupid assume and thinking-too-much. How huh? How den can I make him dun angry?? Stupid silly me... Haiz..

Hope tmr will be better...

Michelle and I will be very happy! Ya, theres exhibition upstair... So... :)

Just finished movie - Love Matters, now going to do other stuffs...

2009-01-19T10:46:00.000-08:00

Finally 19th Jan arrive.

Today finally I break thru the black curse!

Ya, for the consecutive 19days, my sales figure never hits more than 1K (put those collections and deposit aside)... Today finally i did a nice figure! Good one!

Thanks the very very nice customer... Thanks for those good luck encouragements from Jia Wei and Jolin.

Today... can say is a unbelievable lucky day after the very nasty and bad quarrel with my bf early in the morning.

I went to Cheers for some snacks and drinks... And the cashier gave me extra $10! And on my way back... I was thinking about the incident which I gave customer extra change... And the fell which made my knee couldnt be bent after I took extra $1... I was alittle bit worry... And thought of returning the money... But...... I end up buying some puffs and Oh Chang Kee to treat Michelle and Sharon.

And the customer is really nice. Such a big figure I had never close the deal or saw any1 close before that fast. And in fact its the very 1st shop he visited... Thats really lucky of me. Yea, 70% is my luck, i guess.

Ya, so, CNY is approaching. Can off 2 days, and its just 2 days! :( and soon will be Valentines... Should make good use to earn more money! Yea

A small cushion for my BF, to celebrate my joy of Man U winning Chelsea's match last week... Hee, might as well say its for myself... Right.. :P

Just added a song in the playlist... Nice song name 累格 sang by 戴爱玲 (the 1 who sang 爱要耐心等待仔细寻找感觉很重要~~)

爱情这首歌你跟我 Key不合
泪已够 (Let it go) 别再说
累已够 (Let it go) 别挽留

*Its on the Imeem Playlist, song number 6... Try listen ba.. Its nice.

2009-01-11T11:05:00.000-08:00

Suppose to be at pub with Vanessa... but because of something I've to stay at home... Hmph. Watch the Man U vs Chelsea match alone... No nice!

But NICE! 3 eggs to Chelsea... Haha... And I got so HIGH that i took some funny, boh liao, crazy pics... :)

Lalala... :)

I name this pic as "the woman behind the sucessful man"! :) Haha...

Happy until as if I bet and won... Silly.

就算这次做错也只是怕错过

is this an excuse for me to make mistake?

2009-01-10T10:17:00.000-08:00

Just finish our shop's dinner treat at Tiong Barhu (新海山), for hitting 100% target last month.

But, the food is not like wad I expected... Well, this place i heard being around for 10 over years... So we decided to eat that...

1st, the menu... Doesn't attract me much. Food is simple... maybe mainly featured are those seafood ba...

Well, anyway, we ordered 7 dishes... and below are my fussy comments.

Coffee Pork Rib: Nice coffee smell, 1st try is Nice, but after u eat 1 or 2, u dun wish to eat anymore...

Hot Plate Tofu: Food presentation fail. The egg and tofu doesn't really blend well... Not nice comapared to so much Hot Plate Tofu i had eaten before.

Prawn Paste Chicken: The prawn paste not thick enough... Or rather, no prawn paste fragrance, like eaten fried chicken.

Long bean with Prawn Shrimp: Perhaps the best 1 among the above.

Fried Baby Sotong: Not as nice as the 1st time I had tried... :(

Fish head steamboat: Nice soup!!!! But after adding on soup for 2,3 times, it become very very salty.

So i drank 2 glasses of Luo Han Guo with Longan.

With quite alittle of Left Overs.

Overall comments, not as fantastic. However, excellent customer service! Bill is $116.

Snap Shots time!

Yea, today is my OFF day... Very boring!

So change blog skin, update playlist... Yea the 4 songs are a MUST songs for me! I like it... Symbolize the words I wanna say and special between us.

:) more happening stuffs going to happen tomorrow and day after... ^^

遇见你天空更亮丽喜欢的我不想逃避
希望和你一起分享分分秒秒的两颗真心
即使感情结成了冰回首时有你的足迹就会开心

2009-01-07T10:20:00.000-08:00

When I was on my way home, a saw a old granny about 70+ in the interchange, looking helplessly, and 2 polices were beside her. My 1st thought: She lost her way.

I always feel alittle down and sorry /pitiful for these old ppl... Maybe my granny who treat me super good is abt their age too...

And i also begin to think... When Im old like this age, if i forget those important and happiest things in my life, how? Those memories which are sweet and nice, if 1 day i couldnt recall, how?

Hmmm...

I dunno will I live in this world till tat age... But, i think by that time, memories will be the most valuable and important.

Ok, i did a hair cut yesterday... And im quite satisfied by it... Although its a same problem -- makes my face looks super big... But, im kind of immune already, hee...

Done by this cute hair stylist...

He is friendly and "cute" lor... that i could not reject doing hair treatment for my dandruff...

Not forgetting, Michelle... her birthday treat for us... The food is yummy yummy! But, we are too full... Haha...

Salad prawn... I love this dish!

My everyday fav dish... Hotplate Tofu

Michelle's fav... Its a steam fish, but i dunno the name ;p

Satay

San bei ji...

Above pictures are just part of the dish we ordered... The rest looks normal, so... no point taking.

The woman on the right, is the lady boss of the night!

Err, i dun like ppl talk on the phone while eating... No manners =x

So the bills was $109... for 5ppl... Jolin, Sharon, Edwin, Michelle and I...

So in return, we got her a "branded" birthday cake from Secret Recipe.

With her unique SK staff code on it!

She's happy... :)

And my turn... Pizza done for me, by my bf. 1st time to eat the food he prepare. Its nice, im pretty touch too :)

NICE! *CLAPS*

More photos on me... hee :)

I realise recently, lesser emo... hee.. Because i always keep my time occupied, super busy. I dun let myself sit down, imagine things, and recall those unhappy things. Thanks for my humorous collegues, caring ones, and those funny ones. Those who always call me, sms me... Haha... Esp Angeline, Michelle, Wil.. :)

Can you see what is the song???

Well, this is a very special song of mine... Relating between 2 person, everytime this song is played, we will tot of each other. And this is also National Anthem in Vivocity- Sk :)

Now, listen to every word from this song: 我太乖

2009-01-06T06:37:00.000-08:00

Finally post! Yes... today is my 1st off day for the week... finally switch back to 5-days week.

Yea, so i had missed the Xmas posting and New Year posting... Hmm, now is the turn to make up!

1st... Xmas celebration with Van and her hubby, and Alan's group of friends at a pub in Boat Quay... Stayed there till 5.30am lor... and next day have to reach shop 10am... Strong me!

New Year no celebration.

But here is my new year wish... tho is abit late... Take it as the advance lunar new year wishes ba! :)

Harmony and peace in the world... no killings of terrrorist attacks or natural disasters
Good health to my granny and uncle, family and friends, loved 1 and closed 1...
Good sales in my outlet... Shop and individuals.
Economic goes back good again!
Slimmer and pretty! ^.^
Happier and kicked off my bad habits (biting finger when nervous, over-sensitive, easily emo, easily believe others too deeply, over-bothered by others comments) IN SHORT: I WAN TO BE A HAPPY EDELYNN :)
My friends... SINGLE -> find a good gf/ bf... ATTACH -> forever loving...
Work hard for money!
Passport on my coming 21st bday!
Burberry watch.

But till today... 2009 seems like quite unlucky for me leh. Met quite many unlucky stuffs
1st: Closed deal with a 5k sales, finish talking for like about 1hour. But, card DECLINE.
2nd: Stapler poke thru my finger and couldnt come out... have to ask my collegue to help me to pull out. Great PAIN! And blood... :(
3rd: Gave customer wrong change... Settlement short of money... I paid, hopefully will stop all this unlucky things. And hopefully the 1st unlucky incident the customer will come back for the ring! *PRAY HARD*

:) More photos for the next update!

Yup, not forgetting, Happy New Year! =>

2008-12-18T09:03:00.000-08:00

Being real busy lately... Peak season for Xmas sales... But everything done is wrth, cuz at the end of the day, u'll have the satisfaction!

I enjoyed the busy period...

But I hate those............ u noe, u noe...

The FREE GIFTS... =) So cute~~~

Hmm, this pair is cuter!!! So cute~!

Hmm, was talk to W regarding those BGR stuffs... and I really feel quite touched to have some1 to be so concern and worries for me... It really touches me and I really appreciate. Its nice to have some1... tellin u how much they treasure n dun wanna lose u... and worries for u :) thanks!

Well, I promise, I swear... I'll take good care of myself, be strong and happy... Smiling, laughing and being crazy like how I was...

Stay With Me 不准让你走远
时间那么善变爱是唯一的不变

Stay With Me 留你在我身边
把勇气放进心里面把一切不可能实现

-by W.

2008-12-15T07:07:00.000-08:00

Yeah... so tired after 2days of midnight sales and short sleeping hours...

Here to upload some picx... those taken at Double O on Wednesday, for Angeline and Don's advance birthday. Hmm, im quite mad that day... Yeah~

Edwin, Michelle, Agnes and me :)

YUP, being very much into clubbing lately... I dunno why.. Haha..

And Angeline's last day at VC, before she return to IMM, we also celebrate hr birthday together...

Her birthday cake... count the candles to know how old she is :)

"Hmm, so sad... i old again..."

"Smile, its my big day! :)"

The gals...

Her birthday present from us... Nice right...

See... she is always so funny... thats why we like about her :)

Ok, now is really busy... Xmas sales.. Must really do more sales! I must... work hard!! :)

And, edelynn had changed...

2008-11-30T22:48:00.000-08:00

Thanks Guang for helping me to delete away my previous post. Cuz i suddenly felt WRONG in it... Where can a murderer still tell public that she kills some1 and feel sad abt it... Nobody will pity or even care for that murderer... Life is liketat...

Im not going to think about this problem anymore.

Yeah.

:)

2008-11-23T07:28:00.000-08:00

Im better liao... Recover from the unhappy truth. Being real busy with work, promotions and collegues.

BUSY!

Yea, that day at Dragonfly is really a WRONG... wrong drinking method! So drunk. No more Vodkas!

:)

Im in a happier mood, with a new guest in my life...

2008-11-14T07:22:00.000-08:00

I discovered something, which I long ago knew long ago... Now this explains everything.

I noe i should put a stop to this.

Forgive me if this time its my thinking-too-much again.

But i saw those, which makes me feel alittle uneasy and relates me to think more and more negatively.

So sorry...

AHHHH!!! I hate this.

Theres a word, zhong se qin you... But i dun wan to be ur se, i only wan to be your you... Hao peng you...

RasheS!!!

2008-11-13T00:28:00.000-08:00

Today is my 2nd and last day of MC... Just went back shop to open door... Erh, a bad news... the itch is back again, this time on my fingers... Real ugly and really cant tahan... And i've toothace too, its the wisdom tooth that i've got since last Feb... Shit...

Okay, Jolin is back to Vivocity again... After turning rounds, changing diff in-charge, finally she's back.

Haha... this is a funny picx...

My shop staffs is just crazy over photos... :) Nice and fun taking with them!

Had being into clubbing lately... Power House last Friday... and this coming Sat will be at Dragonfly! Hope everything is alright till then...

Various snap shots, done by AN AN...

My turn to snap shot people! =)

With Jane...

I think everywhere im using this picx, Esp with the 2pcs of 2Carat ring, and 1pc of 1.5ct... Woo hoo.... But not for me! Too big liao!

Ouch! The blue-black after knocking by taxi-door... Is really a taxi-door... By a rude woman...
I will change, for the better me... I will...

2008-11-12T07:25:00.000-08:00

MC for two days... With those itchy rashes, those like mosquito bites scars... Makes me learn to cherish life, and love myself more and how to take good care of myself :)

Thanks those who care... Yep, i really appreciated those who sms me, call me, even go down to TTSH with me... :)

Woo, i really afraid of injection, pls no... Pls dun come again!!!

2008-11-02T05:04:00.000-08:00

:) HAPPY SWEET 20s... TO: JANE~~ Yep 3-11-08 happy bday!

Attended her party yesterday, good to have chance to meet up for gathering... and saw Gavin they all, Xinyi and Meph... Cool...
:) Drinking is for enjoy, and /or to destress... Not to make one feel so bad... having hang-over, headace and wanna puke, cant puke kind of feeling... Nvm, once a year... But rmb its not good for health! Hee...

Yes, upload my DnD picx, finally...

This how i look that day... "i noe not nice..."

Yea, so this is the self-designed mask... The sliver thing popping out is Angeline's creative idea...

With Ivy... She's really very nice, 1 of the old-bird is SK...

Michelle and me taking pic with Jonathan, 1 of the ex incharge of Vivocity

This is Wil... like his dressing? Cool right... hehe

Above 2 picx are with William...

With Selene....

Michelle and me with Don Don...

With my outlet incharge Yvonne... She's pretty...

I look so fat beside her!

With Samatha... One of the pretties in SK :)

With Selene, Michelle and Angeline...

:)

Hee, i really like her dressing... Nice pic taken also

Jolin 蔡依林's <<爱的练习语>> album is out... Yea, i think so... Able to dl liao, hehe... and Jolin is back from China also, yea!

2008-10-29T08:35:00.000-07:00

Wad happen, wad happen, wad happen??

Wad happened today really makes me feel so bad... Disappointed, sad and helpless. Hmm, im partly in fault, isnt it? How...

Hope this time is really I think too much again...

$3K to hit my target, how how...

:( today is a saddy day, but Angeline always never fail to say her jokes to make me laugh... Thanks god that i've her by side, hee...

The 3 of you are so important to me... Guang never fails to listen, Des always is the 1 I share things with, Jane is the one who i enjoy being with and tell, share and listen to. Angeline is the 1 who shower me with happiness, Michelle always stand on 1 line with me,Chole always support me and listen to me, Louis always share things and solve things for me, ... Yea, is this name list... :) i dun wish, to lose any of u... So, please...

2008-10-28T08:36:00.000-07:00

Yea, finally a update...

Being real tired lately... And really being to feel more and more stress and unhappy. Well, Chole said I should dun care abt that. But, how can I dun care... Haiz. Forget that...

Do you miss me??

Some photos on DnD 2008... They are just part of it... more to come >>>

SK Jewellery Vivocity ^.^ With Michelle, Angeline and Yvonne

Michelle and I went for a make-over... I wasnt quite like mine, cuz it makes me look too mature liaosss... I like Michelle's hair, and Angline's dressing.

Ya, will upload more picx... :)

你会想我吗
还是你根本不曾在乎什么...

2008-10-16T08:12:00.000-07:00

Really hate Photobucket.. Failed to save my photos... had to spend time and save, retrieve, and hang at there... Using blogger to upload is faster...

1st, gathering with Michelle, Angeline, Selene and Leslie... 10-course dinner consist: 虾酱鸡, Hot-plate Tofu, Satay, 奶油 Pork Rib, 奶油 Sotong, Salad You Tiao, Hor Fun, Malay mee, Fish and Sambal veggy...

We are posting V and C UnItE~!

Leslie and Selene...

The girls~~

Our dishes...

Woo... Another 1 is in shop... Asian Kitchen's 8-course meal... =P

=) Yes, we had a great time... and D&D is just around the corner... had picked my dress for the night... Wishing everything will be right for the day!

Part of the photos taken while trying them...

Theme for 2008 is Masquerade...

人活着不就为了实现一个个心愿

好可惜我和你许了不同的愿

2008-10-09T08:02:00.000-07:00

Blogged. Finally...

Many to update... but i think by posting pictures can save alot of words :)

On Shawn's birthday at Boat Quay's Plush Bar... So coincident that I met Felicia and Sarah there! Wohaha, they are my ex-schoolmates... So coincident la... They are my brother's friend's gf...

Photo taken with Felicia, Ruby and Sarah...

Recently Im kind of crazy in this Vodka Grey Goose. And the bottle is pretty! I drank for 3days and finish it... hug the bottle home :)

Another coincident thing... Met Jinyin, Leon, Wee Yong and Gavin at Boat Quay while i met Vanessa... Cool! and joined them drinking till 6am and good tat I save my cab-fare and took bus home :) Yup, met Meph there too... wad a nice day, for me to meet all my friends who i haven met lately...

Quite pack with schedule nowadays... Went Boat Quay, went 97 last time with Guang and his friends (forgot the names, only emb Rachel and Ah He) lol ... Ya hor, still waiting for Guang to send me my picx taken with Rachel... :P

I dun quite like P*U** B** The waitress there, erm, kind of turn me off ALOT last Sunday.

I am busy... busy imagining things~~

Second day of HOLIDAY!!

2008-09-08T08:48:00.000-07:00

Cool. I finally can sleep until i forget the meaning of "sun"! I never see it... never feel it....... haha.

Yup, on the eve of my officially break, went to Chong Qing Steamboat with Alex, Uncle Ben, Chole, 表姐, Lynn & her bf. Its a pity that Daryl couldnt catch up with us...

=) MY DARLING... love her laughters... Its really makes u laugh together with her!

Aft it, joined Guang and Desmond for a drink at Boat Quay... Martin's entertainment.

Yup, on the next day, i sleep till 5PM! N headed for gathering with Des, Guang n Jane!

PS: NO PIC WITH ME YET.

Finally, a gathering. Yesh!!!

New hairstyle... woke up 5PM again! Nothing to do, cut my fringe... Im happy... I'm crazy, keep laughing and laughing... although some1 just scolded me... BUT IM HAPPY!

I got even more crazy when I see this car-plate... Taking out letter F and letter L... its SK457... MY STAFF CODE! =D

Yes, must congrates Ryans and Danny for their going-to-get-married... And especially must thanks Danny's support!!! U know, he got a half-carat solitaire from me and also a pair of wedding bands! And surprise to see Ryans too... :)

Wad can i do tomorrow?!

2008-09-04T08:13:00.000-07:00

Sales is not good... every1 morale is low... How to motivate? Why new staffs cant work long? Why they look for job just for temporary? Why they cant do their best? Why after saying so much he still make the same mistake? Why...

Whole head is thinking of the above problems... I need a break! I need to refresh myself with all my fav things!

Angeline's accessory... sad face, but its CUTE~!

Yup, must watch 范逸臣's Missing You viedo!!! Its damn touching...
篮球火 is nice... and 命中注定我愛你 is getting nicer, from ep11 onwards...

如果你不爱一个人，请放手，好让别人有机会爱她。
如果你爱的人放弃了你，请放开自己，好让自己有机会爱别人。

有的东西你再喜欢也不会属於你的，
有的东西你再留恋也注定要放弃的，
人生中有许多种爱，但别让爱成为一种伤害。

有些缘分是注定要失去的，
有些缘分是永远都不会有好结果的，
爱一个人不一定要拥有，
但拥有一个人就一定要好好的去爱他。

I dun wan to frown, I dun wan to be sad... I must smile... Cuz he might fall in love with my smile again...

I wonder how will this Sunday outting be like?

我不确定你是不是我一直要找的主角
我用骗人的祈祷 , 骗自己我现在很好

和你在一起的每分每秒, 就像走过彩虹隧道

2008-09-01T08:28:00.000-07:00

My manager got transfer to China Beijing. And I'm the one seeing every1 going... Haiz, and I feel even more sad when I see Angeline crying cuz of Jolin's leaving...

我舍不得可是时间回不去了

Although we were laughing and joking... But,really its too sudden.

So, this is the last picx before 2 months later. And 2 months later, it will be 1yr later...

Our Pizza Treats...

Jolin and Michelle... She is only a staff of two months, but her performance is EXCELLENT!

:) :p :D

I must really thanks Jolin for her guidelines and teaching... If my in-charge is some1 else, I guess I would have resigned long ago... Thanks~ and, althogh we had some misunderstanding, unhappiness before... But, all are over. WE WILL MISS U~!

A list of whom come and go over the 16 months: Vincent, Chole, Rita, Doris, Ken, Shawn, Eric, Gary, Desmond, Xiang Ping, Sally, Shirley, 表姐, Louis, Mark, and now...Jolin (in Beijing).

And this picx itself is taken on Mark's farewell... With Jolin and Doris.

And, i must admit, in tis world, my granny dote me the most!

请原谅我,　原谅我不成熟.
不爱你是藉口,　好让你离开我

真实的爱情...

2008-08-28T09:48:00.000-07:00

Saw an article, and... I think his view is right, so therefore, im sharing this on my bloggie.

韩剧中的爱情与现实中的爱情:

" 大家多多少少也有在电视上接触到韩剧吧，通常戏中令人动人又流下热泪的剧情都总离不开爱情，配上那个悲惨又可怜的音乐简直就是无得顶。像之前的 “冬季恋歌” 还有“蓝色生死恋” 来做例子，剧中的通常都会有一个痴情汉总是默默地 , 奋不顾身地在为女主角付出，甚至为爱殉情。而且这些大帅哥通常都十分浪漫，体贴。如果男生是个公子，那他肯定很豪气；如果他是个“烂仔”，那他肯定为女主角洗心革面。可是，现实中哪有那么好的事？还有还有，戏里面的女主角的异性缘通常都可以好到一个吸引两个男生或是令到两个兄弟都争相爱慕。那么受人宠爱的女人谁不想当呢？"

但是，可惜的是“此爱只有戏中有，人间难得尝一会”。在这爱情如快熟面的时代，只要方便和快就好，品质和保存期并不重要。这就解释了为什么有些人总在韩据中寻找一些幻想和希望。因为她们要把对童话故事般的恋爱的渴望寄托在偶像们的身上。难怪有时候有些明星传出负面绯闻，他们的人气就会下降。那是因为他们毁灭了影迷们在他们身上建立的希望。

而在同一时间里，我看了在同一面的文章。电视剧里面的女主角对男主角说：“我只要做一个简单的女人，找到一个疼我，爱我的好男人，然后和他结婚生子，白头到老”
这句话不知说了多少个女人的心声，女人也常问道：为什么这么简单的要求都无法实现？但是仔细想想，这个要求到底简单吗？

第一：人海茫茫，有这么简单可以找到一个疼我，爱我的好男人吗？

第二：这个好男人会疼我，爱我一辈子吗？我又如何担保他不会变心。他真的是哪个陪我白头到老的人吗？还是，他只不过是我生命中的另一个过客？

第三：我是不是能全心全意地去疼爱哪个对我呵护备至的男人呢？我真的原意为他奉献和付出我的一切吗？

这些疑问或许永远找不到答案，因为相遇，相爱到分手这幕戏每天都在我们的生活上演，可见原来简单女人的要求一点也不简单。

与其嘲笑这些戏迷们无知，不如学习她们对爱的乐观。戏里夸张的情节也许不可能发生，但纯粹的爱还是存在的。与其过分沉迷于据中的浪漫，不如把精神集中在现实的感情中。说不定在自己身上上演的爱情比剧种的更美丽。而更重要的是，它是真实的。"

from: http://jeremi.multiply.com/journal/item/50

Yup. Not simple to find the one... Every1 sure have some ideas in ur mind, how ur partner will be, if not, the rs also will ruin very fast. But of course i believe the word "包容". But how many times u can do this by urself, without ur oher party doing it with u? When darkness arrive, love lost its way too.

一段感情除了关怀,包容与相爱之外,更需要的是互信
爱情不是自私的想占有...而是宽容的对待

For my LOVE, it must contain: TRUST, care & concern, able to accept who I am, able to give me what i wanted, NO disappointment, and I wanted to be no1 (excluding is family members) in his heart! I want my prince charming to NEVER let me shed a tear, always shower me with care and happiness. Must be 大方，性格开朗, 一定要疼我.

Yea.. BUT 这个年代哪里有这么完美的男人???
我又不是灰姑娘, nor i am SNOW WHITE... 哪会遇见?!
So all are just my dreams and hopes and bla bla bla...

认真的男人最帅~!

So now i must.... 对自己好一点!

要专注!

Will goals come true? Or will they failed, just like my wishes?

2008-08-27T12:26:00.000-07:00

They say... you must have a goal in ur mind to keep u moving.

Yep, here's my goals.

RESTART ALL OVER! "I'm a new me... No more looking back of the PAST!"

Yup! I read my previous posts which i wrote 2,3years ago... and i only had a word to describe myself: STUPID! Wadever it is... its all the past. I'm completely a different edelynn.

SMILE SMILE SMILE!!!! "i look so ugly when i frown!"

Ya, smile will make me happy... and, improve my mood, makes my day better! Dun stop myself smiling and laughing!!

DO THE BEST! "do more sales, be hardworking and u can see the results"

Dun bother about stupid people who dun deserve, care more for kind ppl who deserve!

Treat myself better! There's only 1 Edelynn LTL in this world! :)

Lastly but most importantly, I must do the above~!!

元大鹰 so cute~~!

Yup, recently got so engross with 罗志祥! 元大鹰 !

Another 1 by the name of... 袁锦伦. Angeline say he is very popular in Malaysia... He's the prince charming.

LoL.

2008-08-27T09:24:00.000-07:00

Yea... photos...~!

Snap shots!!

Haha!!! my turn!!
she is angeline, princess angel angeline!!!

Angeline is always cheerful, laughing and laughing... making stupid jokes and everyday working with her is SOOoOO HAPPY la! Yep. My face is TWO TIMES BIGGER THAN HERS!!!

LOL.

我给你幸福
你问我什么才是幸福
这个问题反而让我
把你看个清楚

想你幸福
想不到分手你才幸福
是谁的错误
我不认输我忍得住

你怕束缚
我的爱没能把你驯服
你没有退路
那倒不如爽快结束

我最喜欢挑战孤独
我也爱放下了包袱
没有谁没难度我最怕哭

**~~ 爱要爱得投入 ~~**

All are men's fault!!!

2008-08-19T08:53:00.000-07:00

Found this poem in a certain website.

Hmm... many thoughts came out, this is 1 of the best poem i saw, so sharing it out... If Angeline read this, im sure she'll cry instantly...

I thought things were good now

I thought we'd overcome the bad

Now I see through the illusion

Of the love I thought we had

You told me that you met her

Now you don't know what to do

I smiled and said "Just pick herI'll be fine not having you"

But I couldn't hold my tears back

So I whispered "Got to go..."

Then I quickly hung the phone up

So my hurting wouldn't show

Now I'm shaking and I'm crying

And I don't know what to do

Cause the truth is,

I was lyingI can't make it without you

"how can i stop crying, when the only one that can make me stop is the one who made me start?"

Then,

A good apology contains 3 parts:

1)i'm sorry..

2)it was my fault

3)how do i make it right?

***yeah..a lot of people usually miss the 3rd part.. ***

yea...

2008-08-18T09:09:00.000-07:00

I think I really can't manage my life well.

I am a failure in Relationship, in LOVE, in my ambition, in everything!!!

SHIT!

Gotta work hard after tomorrow's off day...

"Good luck, Edelynn~~"

Flipping the past, live the present...

2008-08-17T08:31:00.000-07:00

Yep. I fine today, in the very 1st min of the day... But my morale drop, feeling more sianz and more sianz...

I realised most who suffer from depression, and mental or personality disorder are mostly woman. WHY? Women heart are very soft, isn't it? Women are very emotional over relationship and her loved ones. But men? They tend to feel down mostly becuase of work, tired, or when they met failure. "Love" this word isn't so.... important to them (it seems). It might be important la, but not VERY.

I felt sad and pity at times when I see those mad woman who sits at bus-stop, coffee shop, talking to the air... Surely its must be a great blow to them, then they'll be so "lost".

Haiz. If i still dun make myself happy and pamper myself, sooner or later... I'll be mad. Seriously.

:(

Sad.... I'm really sad lah!!!

I wanted to eat, to sleep, to make myself HAPPY!!!

Trying my best to squeeze a smile out~~!!!!

Ya, just saw my sec school's website, erm... good website, I can see the school's achievements... The school song had changed!!! Wohw!!!

And now Miss Chinniah is a Senior Teacher!! Jane!! She no longer in Red Cross.

But, looking at my uniform group I joined... I can say... glad its still there, but, erm, no comments la...

But if i switch to look at my primary sch website... Its really, thumbs up! But website all bluff ppl de..

Can still see familiar faces over the website, really miss the past.

Woo... memories... and thats Shahidan~~~ the 9pts scorer... and that teacher, i forgot her name, is one of those we threw rotten eggs at~! Haha...

Edelynn say, i am healthy and strong!

Love, does it still exist?

2008-08-16T09:26:00.000-07:00

When LOVE meets problems, especially when facing 3rd party issue or money issue, does TRUE LOVE still exist??

I must have an answer by 4th Sep, the latest... so i can cancel whatever needed... before having to be played another month...

Am i a toy? A money plant? Or just cuz u really need help? Am i foolish? I did that because i tot its love, and still something i could do... But... the word slipped off our mouth tonight.

2008-08-15T07:46:00.003-07:00

Went back to Vivo for Jolin's birthday cake, cllected it for her behalf. I choosen Black Forest for her, but it dint came out to be that delicious n yammy as i tot... :(

Then headed for some photo shot...

I like the night scene at Vivo... its so nice and relaxing, but always spoiled but some nusisance couples who treated that place like "hotel"... Kiss and hug and touch each other like nobody business... Its a public place!!! And Vivocity is one of the Asian's most known shopping malls... Some even still wearing school uniform! How awful it is!

And i realise those who is doing that kind of things are those who are either very young, like school children, or those who are old - old uncle with china woman, and / or those who aren't pretty or handsome.

I mean, if u are so excited over the relaxed and romantic atmosphere, hug and kiss is okay la... But students go there and LC for mins and mins... and i even saw a china couples lying down on the floor and hug together. Puke, it disguested me.

Yes, yes, another worst thing about Vivocity is... Basment 2's toilet is worst than coffee shop's toilet!!! Sometimes, u'll failed to find toilet paper, see pads lying in the toilet, and worst worst worst, no water in the toilet~~~ cant flush, cant wash ur hand!!! Vivocity, yes, im talking abt Vivocity... Basment 2~!

Yes, and congratulations to Singapore 1st Olympic metal~! Cheers...

WHAT IS LOV??? I guess, i dunno~~~

2008-08-13T09:18:00.000-07:00

Came across with Tammi's blog, and found 1 article... Regarding what is love and her peception of love.

I quoted this from her blog...

LOVE means that you would do ANYTHING for someone without asking why.

LOVE means that NO MATTER WHAT, you would NOT walk behind, NOT walk in front, but you would walk BESIDE that special someone.

LOVE means that no matter what life may bring, LOVE would be right there until the end.

LOVE means that you would be there to wipe away tears when there're sad, Laugh with them, cry with them, spend time with them, not be afraid to hold hands in public, treat them with respect, honor there wishes, PROTECT them, and if the time came be WILLING to lay down your LIFE for them.

LOVE means taking care of someone when they are sick, picking them up when they fall, and not being ashamed or to proud to say "I'm Sorry" or "I was wrong".

LOVE IS PURE, LOVE IS UNCONDITIONAL, LOVE IS JUST, LOVE IS POWERFUL!!

LOVE means trying to work things out instead of just quitting.

LOVE means that you are always thinking about the one you love.

LOVE means that you would give everthing up in a heartbeat if that is what it would take to be with that someone,

and finally...

LOVE means COMMITMENT.
IF you REALLY love someone you are Committed to them for the rest of your lives.

LOVE means that even when they get grouchy, get a few wrinkles, gain some weight, lose some hair.....you will STILL LOVE THEM!!

LOVE means that you LOVE someone for WHO they are and not for what you EXPECT them to be.

LOVE is NOT lust, LOVE is not a one night stand, LOVE is not a fling.When you REALLY LOVE somone and someone REALLY LOVES you, there will be NO second guessing because you will know.

LOVE can be Fragile and should be handled with care and not taken lightly.When you get ready to tell someone that you love them, DONT say it unless you MEAN it!!

LOVE is a BEAUTIFUL thing when you mean it, but it can also be hurting if you dont.SO when you say "I LOVE YOU", I hope that it just isnt words coming from the mouth, but instead words of sincerity.

and i like her own opinion on what love is... She is still the same Tammi i known in NYP, dare to say, dare to do. She admits she do not know the truth meaning of Love, what mentioned above are just definition and the surface of the word LOVE.

She also commented, most impt now is to WORK....

Yup, i do agree. I should leave my "trouble" behind first... and WORK for more money!!!

Anyway, i failed to believe the meaning of "LOVE"... AND DO NOT THINK ANY1 AROUND MY AGE WILL KNOW.

PS: i need some time to MIA... i dunno what i'll burst out everything to you two... but... But... I really feel very embarrassing on that day. Pls pls forgive me...

2008-08-09T08:35:00.000-07:00

Today is National Day...

Happy birthday Singapore!!!

And Old Chang Kee is having $1 for all their items...

Yesterday was 08-08-08.

The day before was 07-08-08, under lunar calender, it is Qi Xi... and it was my bf and mine 2nd anniv...

Well, i did my hair extension again... No more curly ones as before, this time i did a straight extension... Didnt really like it...

Yep.

2008-08-02T08:54:00.000-07:00

Today is a happy day, everything seems so nice. I guess its Angeline and Michelle's jokes, and the new guy's improvement... everything is so smooth for me.

Yep, tmr off... today nothing to do, must sleep the whole tonight and tomorrow!!!

I miss Louis.
I miss Christoher, he mia.
I miss the nokia ear-piece, its lost.
I miss the hair extension!!! Esp seeing Angeline's one is so nice...

Yep :)

2008-07-29T08:25:00.000-07:00

Opened and close door today. Bao ban everything. Argh. Tired!! I'm half dead now...

Hmmm... now my new target is Angeline... She is cute! :) Yup, i mean "clickable" best friend la... not those, u know... She reali looks like Zhong Jia Xin... the ger in Shi Fen Ai who loses her hubby.

=) Finally today off, counting down the days to 7th Aug...

2008-07-25T08:41:00.000-07:00

Blogging again...

Yes, its the second day after officially being the so-called "2nd key holder". The feeling is... "I FEEL LIKE SLEEPING!" haha... as advised by Sally, I should keep myself occupied so I won't feel bored without Louis present.

Indeed... missed him alittle la... but the feeling that he's no longer here wont be as cold as how Shawn (another of my ex collegue) left... Shawn's leaving made me cry for awhile, jus because its too sudden.

Before the day Louis leave, we talked alot... alot of rubbish...and i'll always missed it la... And chole joined us, we went to Upp. Thomas for prata after work...

Wad we had is only a small-sized prata, ut its so HUGE!!! haha... Yup, its nice, we had 03 altogether... Hmmm... its Yummy... i love the Banana Chesse Prata.

My best friends in SK - CHOLE WONG AND LOUIS LIEW =)

On the actual day itself, is my off day... I hesistated if I should sent him off, as i previously suggested. Im afraid i'll be seen as a bai chi... But im afraid i'll regret not to send this 1yr buddy off... In the end, i stil went... Hehe...

Last picx taken...

With Jolin, and Angeline... and a new staff...

Close-up

1 more.

This one with Sally... its she motivated me, and make me go down.. hahaha...

Yup, quite afew ppl eventually asked if i cried while i send him off. Haha - My thats my reply. Indeed i do feel sad. Looking back, he and me stayed in Vivocity outlet for 1 yr plus... and as a collegue, we faced each other daily, 12 hours a day... sometimes the duration is even more than the time we spent with our family... Thus, we develop the kind of trust and friendship. He's a very good friend of mine... :)

So now... no more ppl making read for me, no more breakfast, no more laughing at each other, no more pitching each other tummy, no more bullying.

Haha.

Now, picx on food! Good food! We had them at Jumbo. For the Mystery Shopper rewards and Louis leaving.

Loster salad and chilli crab. More picx, ut due to the lousy camera and lousy shooting skill... forget it, im not putting them up.

And yep, its the 2nd time some1 peel off the prawn shell for me to eat! haha. thx bro.

GOOD BYE!!!

See you in AUG!!! and after that must wait for years den can see you liao!!! SAD!

With loves, edelynn (novibeauties) :)

2008-07-21T09:06:00.000-07:00

Today off day. A relax schedule for this wext week will be dead. Yep, tomorrow will be my last day seeing brother Louis. Its his second last day... And on his last day, i'll be off... Can't get to see him for the final and last time... I may go back to Vivo on Wednesday... to send him off la...

The resignation letter which i helped him to hand up... Wad can i say to him... Haiz... My best friend in SK after Chole... I'll defintely miss him!

Thats my post for the day......

2008-07-16T08:34:00.000-07:00

Im really stressed up and feeling negatively.

I failed.

I failed to reach the goals i had set for myself in life.
I failed to reach the kind of "standard" that i always wanted.
I failed to smile n laugh happily.
I failed to not to be bother with wadever they do to me.
I failed to be happy with wad i already have...

Im really envy...
I guess everyone hope to be like her... Pretty and clever... and have a happy family... Also graduted and got into nus...

:(

counting down to 7 days before Louis' last day... NO!!!

I swear this is my last blog of unhappiness and emo. No more.

2008-07-11T08:28:00.000-07:00

Im feeling so stress!! Argh, learnt how to do settlement, how to count target, how to open safe... Preparing and learning to help out as a 2nd shop incharge... But with the words she said, i really feel kind of cannot make it... Have the kind of "scare" feeling. Sales target are very far behind too. Shit.

I tot joining T... but... im really stuck of wad to do...

Please save me... and i need the "Motivation"...

I browse thru the past picx... hah, really missed the past la... All are over anyway, and its so different.

This was in our return to SGSS Red Cross if i dint remember wrongly... And Red Cross, we once very commit into it... :)

Haha, two of them...

My ITE friends... Woha, its already 2 yrs ago... And no contact with them liao... Just some random smses...

One of the most loving phone of mine, because its very user-friendly, and the memories i've for it... Yea, the wallpaper is some1's picx... Some1 i used to have feelings for.. whaha...

A purple colour wrist band with my name... its my 18 bday gift, if i didnt remember wrongly... from Guang and Meph..

From dear... no.7 tweety significant our 1st day together... Going to be 2nd yr liao...

At Jolin's concert... hmmm, waiting for her next visit to SG...

This are all just part of the memories... Many more... Not forgetting those with Chong Ling, Xin Yee, Sarah and Peiling... those with my redcross pals, in camp -EVIC and Unit Leader course, O-levels, TVM -where i met Daryl, Peiyee, angeline, pub - partybox with Sweetheart, Christine, Ryans, in NYP with Novita, Cheryl and summer and in ITE clementi with Xuiching and bla bla... and those hi-bye friends, and finally now... lots more to carry on...

2008-07-05T08:57:00.000-07:00

Beer really makes me a bad drowsy hangover the next day. Yucks,i couldnt drink beer la... Just a jug will send me home. Whaha. I still love my Chivas more...

Counting down to my buddy Louis last day. Ya, he resign le, now serving his notice. I noe i'll really feel sad and lonely without his presence. When he's on leave last week, i noe this feeling really sucks. LOUIS!!! I'LL MISS YOU VERY VERY MUCH!!

And he resigned, I may not get to see him until 2yrs, or even 10yrs later... Argh! I really hate to bear with him la. He's the 1 who tell me jokes, share things, share the closest serect and rumors, call each other fatty,stepped on each others leg and learn ways to on diet. He's the only collegue who will prepare bread for me, and buy me breakfast, bla bla bla... I really hate to leave him and see him leave... I'm going to CRY~~!!

Louis, YOU ARE THE BEST!!! You can never be replaced!!! hahaha

Anyway, this picx is due to the hot steam inside the pantry, the kettle is too hot la... He's creative, to make use of it to let it become a "steamer"... so thats where our delicious food from!

Wooo... ;)

2008-06-30T08:35:00.000-07:00

Watched the European Finals... Knew Spain will win, but never expect its so easy lah!! Haha, I was expecting to watch a penalty shoot-up... cuz its really exciting and more thrilling... But, in 90mins, Spain killed German already... Hhaha... I felt the Spain deserve the winnings, the Germans are kind of BAD-TEMPER... not sportmanship...

Torres is cute.

Thats all for today.

After you leave, i'll have no one! :(

2008-06-26T08:40:00.000-07:00

Time to blog again...

Hmm, for the past 1 week, quite a number of things happen, and they made me kind of unhappy, sad and low marale in work. I felt kind of being "used" and my effort in teaching him and my ways of helping him to cover his mistake to make myself a fool.

Well, 2 of my collegues resigned at the same time. Sally serve her notice till her last day, as she is new... so she only needs to give 7 days notice.

The sad and most dramatic part is Shawn... my so-called "du di". The really first du di of mine who I really teach and give him notes and to prepare himself before he get any naggings or scolding.

He left without giving any notice. He just smsed us and tell us he wanna quit and will not be coming to work. His inital tot is to have MC for the day, as he told me a very stupid reason that his pants are being washed, so its not dry yet.

Damn. Cant he use his brain and give us a better excuse? Den we found out, his gf was on MC too. And i reveal their secret, he scolded me and say why am i same with others... Whenever they two together MC , we must think in the way that they are lying? But, thats the fact...! Would 2 people staying together, so coincidentally MC together??

They are treating all of us as fools and idiots wad...

Okay, so the next day his gf didnt turn up for work and they MIA together, avoding our calls and sms...

Their salary will be deducted 14 days, and their respective items not returned to the company too... But, they made us clear their shit too... samantha cant OFF for 2 weeks, due to not enough staffs, and Jonathan's leave will be cancelled too...

All along, Shawn gave me a impression as "innocent" -> dunno how to tell lies... But after this, he simply change into a person i dunno. He let all of us down, and this guy, i judge him as a friend rather than a collegue, but... He just left, without saying anything...

The night before, he even told me he want to work together with us for at least 1 yr... and tell me not to resign so fast. But, i suddenly lost a "friend" in 1 night.. And i swear i wont contact this person.. Kind of the feeling that this guy is dead.

A 24 yrs old guy, no thinking... letting a 19 yrs old gf pulled him all the way... CHILDISH. Really la, the kind of MIA never give notice is wad I was doing when I was 17 yrs old... Haiz. And they dun even feel any guilt, dun even a word of apology but scolded me who sms him.

I noe my sms are very harsh, and kind of insulting... But, this ji jiang fa, i just hope it will works. I had did my part... And his gf even scolded me to be thick-skin, since he say he wanna resign he also wont stay bla bla bla... Well, since he had resign, i wont want him to come back unless he is a top sales... WE JUST FEEL SAD THAT 14 DAYS PAY WILL BE FORFEITED and i'm not happy that his irresponsible act had to make ppl clear his shit for him. Thats all.

Well, Im disappointed... And we hate you.

2008-06-19T07:49:00.000-07:00

yea,imback to blog again, my blog not dead... just have no time...

Ok, noe having a new manager, and new collegue, Sally.. She very hardworking, but so sad, she resign already. Haiz, why cant new-comers who are good just stay long?

Business quite quiet, bcuz of the economic, and bcuz of the school holiday. The europen cup worsen the mood of every1... Popular teams got defeated... Luckily Italy dint got kicked off, hehe... but i still like Portugal (Por-to-gen :P)

With Wenguang, at 97 =)

Working is always fun with a group of nice collegues. Laugh and laugh.. haha...

So,this funny guy post with my bag with Ah Zi...

Yes, but besides making a fool f himself infront of the camera, he also make sandwices for us!

Its Yummy yummy, with ham on the base, chicken culet, sausages with mayonese and lime =)

Hahaa... so this funny and nice collegue of my, is named Louis. The Largest LV =)

And its being awhile we last contacted... im forgotten le ba... =)

2008-06-03T08:43:00.000-07:00

Anybody still rmb our Secondary School mathematics lesson? How to calculate Simple Interest, Algebra - factorisation, Pythagoras’ theorem - sine, consign, tangent?

Woo.. spent my 3 beautiful off days reading thru my past yrs notes and homework...

Haha, no la... the real fact is... i am clearing my room's mess. Scary, to still find my couple yrs ago thing still exist in my house.

Nice memories.

Yeaa, tmr got to work already. Boring.

Candid viedo snap shot.

Candid viedo shot of Louis

More to post... but im lazy...

2008-05-26T08:40:00.000-07:00

I finally know the truth last night. I tot its always friendship... but i realised its not. If you are reading this, i hope you will give me a chance to explain. Im sorry to have neglect your feelings when im with my own friends or with my bf. I always rmb a nice buddy like you. I dont want to lose you this friend... Really...

I couldnt sleep the whole of last night. I knew i was too much... to all my fellow friends... I tot all of us are busy, u all never initiate any meet-ups... But anyway, im very sorry...

No matter i see more and more ppl change.

Im Sorry.

I see past memories that we shared... and now you wont e listening to my prolems anymore. I know you are mad. Im sorry. PLS drop me a sms if you had read this and pls give our friendship one last chance k? Im really trouled.

And YOU too, we had being quite separated over the past 1 year... Aft i attached and work in SK, and after you are busy with sch work and carrer and your own group of friends. I hope this friendship wont be shifted...

I tot... I tot... my whole head is full of the word i tot... But its not as wad other ppl are thinking...

ARGH. Pls save me.

Pls forgive me.

Pls give me one chance to explain and mend this.

I tot i wont be bother by wad you do, wad u think, but im wrong. I really felt so sorry.

2008-05-23T09:00:00.000-07:00

Finally finish Mothers Day Sales... finally can relax abit. yea, and i'll be on leave on1st-3rd June... Haha, got to plan my days...

Hit my target, now aiming for the next level... hehe

Was at Rav, Dong Ba and 97 last night... and i got the chance to watch the repeat telecast of Man-U vs Chelsea... i still can feel the joy and the thrill of those who watch the live telecast. The penalty kickout... Van der ser the best, ronaldo the handsome... lolz...

Had a bad quarrel with a bitch at Ikea. Fuck... she shouted at me accusing im cutting the Q... Well, i dint do it by intention, i was totally BLUR cuz i had never been to Ikea's Food Restaurant before... and she is picking up her utensils so i walked forward to see wad they have... because im buying some food for my collegues. And Fuck, fuck, fuck!!! She ran to me and shouted at me...

Of course, im edelynn... I nv allow ppl to shout at me for no reasons... and uses slang ang mo at me.. saying im stupid and no manner... Im talking to a total bitch. Yes, bitch, and the F word, they are my lanuguage.

Quarrel is quarrel... wad for i out myself in nice sentences and shimlogy wordings?

A bad quarrel that lasts for 30mins, with eyes staring at us. And i wont give up, im not in the wrong. FFFFFUCK.

This is me. My lousy and fuck up character.

Haha... sounds like im killing ppl right. Yea la... I was happily wanting to buy something for my collegue cuz i drop by... But the stupid woman spoil my day. Cant she say nicely? Qi Shan Pa Er. Think im good to bully? NEVER.

And any1 bring me to Sentosa beach? Ubin? And Escape theme park? Im boreeed...

2008-05-08T10:12:00.000-07:00

Its was going pretty smooth and happy for me... But, when the clock strikes 12, my unlucky star strike strike me twice in lesser than 30mins. SCARY.

1St: I miss my train to alight... i suppose to alight at Tampines, but over slept and sat all the way to Pasir Ris. It was the last train...

I tell myself maybe i'd try my luck to hop on to a last bus... But, my ez-link card value is negative 70cents.

I search my wallet and coin pouch, I had less than a dollar left. Shiiittt.

So, i board on to a cab (i see the most friendly den i dare to board...), i ask him to drop me at the car-park, while I leave my bag in the cab and return home for money... he agreed...

2nd WORST THING: I drop the gate key into the back seat! I lost it!!! (the gap, the very tiny gap)... As the driver and I couldnt reach, i cant bear crying and begging the driver to help. And called dear... I couldnt talk to him, cuzz i was crying and crying non-stop (so embarras!). Then dear spoke to the driver... he tot him the way to lift up the back-seat, and i search and finally found the key... If not, Im homeless for the night...

I gave the driver 10dollars, and treat him a bottle of drink.

Thanks the driver so much, i really appreciate his help. If is other driver, they'll jus fuck care.

Yes, I have finally removed my hair extention...

tata...

Its cooler, and not so messy... After i comb my hair, i can leave my house already... And when reach my shop, I just need to apply a thin coat of GEL and i could be free-and-easy the whole day :)

Little gift from my customer for her wedding gift... So sweet, can see that she is very happy and blessed... Its a little tea cup with chocolates... One for me, one for Jolin...

Counting down to 6 days before Jolin leave... Finally I had become closer with her...but she's going...

She wants me to look after 'trouble'... cuz i guided Shawn quite well, and he is learning and doing well... But, its not that im good, is that Shawn is willing to accept mistakes!

I really dunno how to work with 'trouble'...

-He love to "THROW" jewelleries in 1 corner, and make the showcase messy
- He said, nvm, can tidy up, but the fact is it made the shop very Low-Class & its always some1 else doing the job for him, cuz he is too SLOW
- He love to tallk back, and never accept mistake.
-The way he talk to customer... rude, unprofessional.
-He isnt a helpful collegue.
- He really dunno how to take care jewellery... The way he handle, touch, take the item, if im a cusotmer, i wont buy from him.
-The way he represent himself is not good.
-He likes to treat himself like same level like senior. Anything the office call, he will not ask us, he only inform us.
-He is a roti-prata man

And i noe if im going to talk to him, I'll quarrel and bang the table at him. I know im not like last time, in Red Cross... But im just tired to look after some1 who do not deserve =X

Any1 have guides on how to handle this kind of ppl...?

2008-05-03T10:37:00.000-07:00

This is from chole when she visit us...

So sweet...

2 big news: Im not going exhibition already. Mixed feeling. And, my in-charge will change... change to some1 who is very strict, very... and very.... Oh no...

Quite worry. Very sad. And im worry for my tu di... Oh my... I cant bear my in-charge la... we finally become so close after so many misunderstandings...

=(

=( counting down to mothers day, counting down to 15th may...

2008-04-30T10:19:00.001-07:00

A few questions to ask.

Does those with dark skins have big butt, or big ass? Why do they always occupy more than half of the original seat in bus or train. Everytime make me squeeze to 1 corner, cuz i hate to touch their arms when bus turns.

Well, maybe im racist.

Next, why does some ppl love to talk loudly over the bus in public transport? Uncles aunties maybe they cant hear, but how abt others? Esp MIC... ladies dressed elegantly, genlemen dressed professionally, but when they open their mouth, it turns me "on".

And i just find the service standard of taxi-driver so fuck up. I rmb when i was a kid, those taxi-uncles were friendly, and they always engage in small chat with u and will welcome u when u bored on the cab, and thanked u when you alight. But, today, the driver 1 word also can dont come out from their mouth. And i've met several incidents where the drivers argued and show attitude.

World had changed, or is it i have changed?

Different sides of me. Im emotional, mood swings always. Laugh, cry, angry, sad.

Different side of me, and is always U who affect me...

Multi-personality. I want to be the best, but i dun wan to be stress. I want to be happy, but i choose this way which i knew i wont be happy.

My heart and my brain thinks differently. I dunno who should i listen and follow. Sometimes im really confused. Thats why i love to stay at home and sleep... not just cuz im lazy, is a way to avoid too...

A cup of ice green can makes me happy, a sentence from u can make me cry...
This is my winning for the match Man U VS Liverpool.

Any1 heard of 卫兰's 'My Love My Fate'? The lyrics really attracted me...althouits cantonese... she sang it very well, even better than the prev singer who sang the song in chinese version...

Here's part of the lyrics:

太美好的东西会走
还未爱够了你怎放手

我要首先讲声我走
还是爱到你说请你走

过去当做看戏
世界当没有你

First heard this song from Dong Ba... and im addicted... =X

2008-04-29T13:44:00.000-07:00

Man U won Barcelona 1-nil !!!

Hit my 25K target, finally. Thanks to Louis... I really love being with my collegue, the team work, the joy we share, and the kind of bonding we have.

And i am happy =)

Some picx to upload... for my 20th bday (its late, i know... haha)

With Shirley, Shawn and Jolin...

From VC collegues...

With Michelle, & Vanessa

With JJ (bartender of Dong), & Chris (my ex manageress)

And before the day.......

Gathering with Chole, her last day at SK

At first, we replaced each other at our root outlet Northpint and Vivocity respectively. And we 'reunite' atNorthpoint. She is sweet, shy and lucky. ""不说话也许可以卖东西"" This is wad we always say her.

And we love to chat over the phone, talk abt our dream, dream guy... Ya, and she also loves Renfu... I found myself more fated to Renfu fans =) And i realised, over the past two days, when i am extremely sad, or happy... she always happen to text me.

Coincident, or fated, im just happy and really appreciate this sweetie!

=)

She is Debbie

Her present is similar to my past. Exactly. She is from Japan, and mother is a Taiwanese. Last day for her to be in Singapore.

There's this 'trouble' at work. He make all of us in a mess. He dislike me, and i made him know in the face that i dislike him too. He loves to make roti prata, he won't admit his mistake, and assume he did, he's no longer a kid, he's going to be a father, but, he is simply childish and selfish. He love to do things in his own way, he love to pretend to know how to do everything, but in fact, actually he know nothing. He always give customer wrong information. He never obey me although im his senior. He is just simply, a trouble.

I hope he can change, if not shop will be in a MESS when im out for exhibition attachment.

Mothers' Day busy season, no1 can help him.

Mothers' Day... i hope i can celebrate too... but...

2008-03-24T08:30:00.000-07:00

Only have 1 word to say for my rs: "singlehood".

End of today post....

2008-03-22T08:39:00.000-07:00

Yesterday was 21-3-2008, Good Friday. Is it a good one for u? I guess its a pretty nice 1 for me... I've closed 2 deals of 1k salws in one short, dealing with 2 different customer, hee...

And i finally have the chance to meet up with my dear friends.

Maybe somethings are different, no longer like before, but i really do miss u guys! I mean it. I know most of the time is due to me unavilable... but i'll try my best to make up for the gatherings for the time we have missed ok? And i hope our bonding wont be affected :)

Yes, n about rs problem, i try to put it one side. Because i really hate them affecting my mood, and my smiling face.

爱情不是三言两语就可以说得清
有时一个眼神就能看透真心
虽然你也可以选择逃避或置之不理
但你知道的我还是会等你

Today was so tired for work... hehe... But my "green" luck is beside me. And i really wish it will always be around! Okay, and i had nice chatting with my collegue, and KFC treats from Shirley.

I swear to learn Mahjong! And i promised that i will sort up, think thru, a real goal in my life... Im already 20... no more time to waste...

你要的爱太完美, 我永远都学不会

Packed my room a few days before, and found MANY photos... nice shots with my ex, my sch mates, myself when im young, and with 3 of u... so many nice memories la... i do treausre u guys. So, this is for u:

谁能够划船不用桨
谁能够扬帆没有风向
谁能够离开好朋友没有感伤?

我可以划船不用浆
我可以扬帆没有风向
但是朋友啊
当你离我远去我却不能不感伤!

Understand the chinese blocks? :)

2008-03-20T08:05:00.000-07:00

他不会是个好男人
也不会是个好情人
你对我说我们只是擦肩而过
好的男人有那么多
少了他的日子也能过

我不会再让你寂寞
也不会让你更难过
你听我说要好好学着去生活
就算未来有多少错
至少还有我的问候
我的温柔陪你度过

Im late for work on the 18th March 2008, late for 50mins, deduction of salary $75.00. ARGH!!!! Pissed.

2008-03-11T08:55:00.000-07:00

I have understand the meaning of "friends" and "soulmate" and "passer-by friends" on this 20th bday... And i'll start refresjing my list of "friends".

Thanks for those who bother to attend, thanks to those who bother to give me a bday greetings. Thanks to those who bother to make it a happy n siginificant day for me. And thanks for those who are concern for me... :)

And those who likes to give excuses, or jus join my party for the sake of joining only... and those who dun bother me at all... I wont bother at all too...
Cuz im 20th already... i wont feel emo jus cuz i dun have u...

Well, will update more on my bday...

PS: I dun need u to be reading, if u're not concern for me this friends. Well, i noe i dun have u i wont die... So, cheers, save ur time and stop reading...

2008-03-06T00:10:00.000-08:00

How should i start blogging? Hmm, well...

Yesterday went to Pasir Ris with Q, Michelle and Chris... Its a nice place... Had a quarrel with the taxi uncle, his nets machine have problem, i cant pay by the nets and i've no cash... He insists that is not his machine problem, but my card - no money. I got so fared up, instead of asking Chris to come up and pay first, i ask him to go to the main road and cash cash. Woo, fuck, he go to many places tat doesnt have a ATM machine for OCBC. And i really got pissed off with him... He then said "now i drive u to this place, this place confirm have." I replied, "oh, this 1 is confirm de la, the previous 3 places is for the meter to go up and make me pay more la?" He kept quiet. I continued, "u slowly go rounds lor, this 1 confirm or not confirm have never mind, im NOT going to pay for these... I'll just pay for the ride to Pasir Ris." And i ended up reaching near 1am. Fuck it. Waste my time... He tot im those idiot who have no money take cab, even at ATM machine, he also followed me there la.

Okay, today... I slept so tight... finally have a nice sleep...

My problems is still within me. I always smile, joke, laugh to try to forget the problem... I cant turn to any1 and tell them, cuz they're sure to be telling me this advise. And thanks the only 1 knowing this is Debbie and Shaun... Cool. And my brother also slowly realise this problem im facing liao...

I hate this. I really want to stop this and resume our past happy memories.

I need love, need care, need concern. I have given everythi to u... but i jus realise things got more worst, i dun wan u to be using me...

Celebrating my 20th years of unhappiness and sadness ad the mistake to leave me in this world. Celebrating my 20th years of stupidness and useless.
Will be at Music Heritage at Boat Quay...

2008-02-23T06:41:00.000-08:00

Its a Saturday, its my OFF DAY! =) But i felt i had wasted this beautiful day at hme sleeping...

Im so sad, nearly cried when they told me Chole had resigned, and Sunday will be her last day. I will miss her so much la! She is my best buddy in SK... we shared gossips, dreams and anything, everything. She will be back to Malaysia, oh no, i will miss this sweet lady.

Looked forward to 1st March to see her again, and perhaps, the last time.

Well, i will be celebrating my 20th bday at Pub Orange located somewhere near Upp. Serangoon.. i gotta work on the 8th... so, time to meet will be around 11pm... Please come! Certain ppl are very important, and i dp hope to see them there.... =)

Visited Home KTV pub with the same old group, oh, im pretty drunk... Ooops, i really cant drink beer la... Forgive me... And ya, lucky i have a good brother and da sao. =)

I have already given up on things i know i cant get...
and i noe, in this way, is good for both of us.

2008-02-11T08:50:00.000-08:00

Counting dwn to last 3 days remaining in CCK exhibition... I guess i will miss the fun with them. Hmm, and i will miss the amazing luck i have over there... haha...

Yea, im really very tired, and sleepy... I want a break! A break to do all i wan, with the person i will like to be with... OR i can just sleepppp~~ the whole days n nights!

Im quite disappointed in LOVE, and also MARRIAGE. Marriage aint equal to "love had settle dwn", but is a new start to learn how to "maintain the love". Hmm... complicated. Love aint easy...

I must, must work harder, alot alot harder to earn as much $$ as possible, in this CCK exhibition!!

And, i saw 1 Brilliant Rose diamond pendent, real pretty... only $398... AWWW! I WANT IT!!! =)

Some picx to share...

Blur look of dear, i look very greenish -.-

This is hw i look at work

Looking very 'decent'...

Wishing u guys an advanced HAPPY VALENTINES!

2008-02-07T08:32:00.000-08:00

恭喜发财
新年快乐!!!

Yea, Happy New Year. Just went to Chuan Yi Pin Steamboat with dear and his brother... eat alot la... And i ahev eaten all the dao pok, hee... :)

Yesterday reunion dinner, we ordered KFC! Haha... And after dinner, i headed to Wisma IndoChine to meet Christ while dear headed to work. The rest joined later and we went to Dong Bar... Yea, i frequent Dong Bar pretty lots la... i like the cozy feeling... heh.

Yesterday was also the first day for me to work in CCK exhibition, which was under Sookee, so im selling different things, all for the first time. Yup, and yesterday i can say, is a good start... Hehe... Sold my 1st piece of GIA on the 1st day of the exhibition... :)

Hope the new year, i will have better good luck, and a happier lady!

Another thing, headed to Lunar with dear and his bunch of collegues, its a nice place worth visiting... Beacuse the live band is REAL SOLID. Thumbs up. Also saw the Superstar contestant's performance, is good la... =)

I noe this is abit lame, but im happy la...

在这里恭祝大家：鼠年大吉，在新的一年里拥有“鼠”不尽的健康，“鼠”不尽的快乐！:)

2008-02-04T08:33:00.000-08:00

Expo exhibition had over. I was on 2 days of MC on the last two days due to my winstom tooth pain. Argh. I really cant close my mouth properly nor i can enjoy my favourite food.

SHIT.

2008-01-31T08:04:00.000-08:00

Counting down to last 4 days for exhibition at Expo... Food is really ex and not nice over there, and the crowd is really not much. Well, i will be going to next stop of exhibition at CCK. Yup, CCK, Chua Chu Kang... Its FAR la!! :(

Okay, quite go along with the 4 guys... 5 actually, altogether, but 1 of them, i dun really like. Hmmmm...

I did hair extension! At City Plaza, the 1 which is very popular, 1 strand for a dollar each... picz uploaded...

This hair length really brought me some good luck la... did it last Tuesday, the eve of the exhibition... my bf pretty like it, lol... Den went drinking with my brother... haha...

Watched "The House" with NP collegues, not nice!!! Although its from the same director as "Shutter", but this flim really FAIL.

Looking forward for tmr... i will blog more detail... :)

Do visit Spore Expo Hall 5, for the John Little Sales... really is a sales la... u can see the prices are really cheap, and the quality is there. You wont regret lor... :)

2008-01-23T06:58:00.000-08:00

Im really very tired and SLEEPY today! Another boring boring day.

Went to HQ for some prepartory work for tomorrow's exhiition at Expo. Im the only lady there. Hmmm, dun worry, no1 catches my attention so far... Haha...

Okay, watched 色戒 with Jane and Ah Guang, the uncut version. My intention is to see 梁朝伟 la... Quite disappointing... Not nice.

then, next day visited Dong Bar, alone as i really hate going home so early. Then Christ joined me... so nice of my brother. Hehe. Catch up with some familiar faces over there. Hmm, im pretty happy la at least theres some1 accompanying me. But, im really too troubled having so many things to think about, and worry about. Anyway, i really appreciate it la... i was stupidly talking some nonsense as i really cant drink beer... hehe...

Yup, i did my hair extension. Finally!! =) And i should admit it brought me some real good luck :)

Well, anyway, i hate people questioning me, when i say no means no, and please be understanding, dun ask me stupid question even when my voice sounds so bad.

我喜欢这样跟着你,
随便你带我到哪里...

别让我越过爱情禁区

2008-01-20T06:48:00.000-08:00

Dunno how to start the posting. Shucks, i hate this feeling. Im really very pissed off with myself, i hate the emotional me!!

Anyway, thanks to those whos there to listen to my story... at least a short bit... i noe some ppl dun wish to listen to my story, but, they are forced to cuz i say it out... anyway, thanks. Thanks god too for always giving me some little nice memories with the 1 i have feeling for. Although it never lasts, like wad is happening now, i think i need to be satisfied and smile already.

Since i already had wad i wanted, and my little wish for 2008 had grant, i will let it go... Hmmm... let nature take its course ba... I am getting more and more greedy to things that is impossible to happen.

Well, got my bonus last week, and met up with collegues for a drink at boat quay. It was the 1st time, so i guess its worth blogging and to let me remember. :) Was with samantha, michelle, gary n christ... its fun. I hope, there will be another chance, as my brother agreed to me. ha.

Met up with vanessa and saw christine... and jennifer too aso contacted me after so long... 温馨 lor...

Stress... emotional...... too many things in my head... certain part is happy, certain part i jus wish to pretend not to know...

是你赐我生命
爱一趟迷糊梦里
你来到推开一片窗
令我再有希望重拾情深一往

没借口哭得心碎,
只想眼泪回流时,
连同着这秘密埋藏在血管里

假如不许我再跟你生活,
世上不必存着有我
假如天意让我此生得不到你,
不必需要有天意

恋爱是...无形如童话精灵
无形而能使我心情起伏,反而感觉满足.
我愿为爱作牺牲,耗尽了我的真完成童话内戏份

有时候不知不觉会流泪,
有时候觉得对你完全不了解.
寂寞很安全,但我宁愿冒险.

看不到的明天,只要看得到你.

因为爱上了,什么都舍不得.
为了爱心疼,说真的我很快乐.
你也许不会是我牵着手走到最后的人,那又如何.

思念是诚实的,因为爱上了,什么都原谅了.

2008-01-17T07:19:00.000-08:00

我讨厌自己! 每次发花痴... everytime imagine things... this and that... ARGH...but all i want is jus to have some people to accompany me and bla bla bla... i never wanted anything more la... :(

Okay, finally i have gotten something i wanted to have, reach my goal for 2008! Yep. Although its not meant to be for me, at least, but coincident, i have it. lolz. Ask me, i will tell you!

Read thru my past posts since 2005... found myself so stupid, haha. And i started to be a happier person after joining jane, guang and des group, and even happier after i met my dear. But now, things started to turns off slowly... I miss my long hair la... i think i will go to do an extension. Looking forward!

This my 2nd week in northpoint. No comments. But im really very slack liao la... haha... at least i've some1 to talk to, some1 to laugh at... ha...

Tomorrow will be my day to receive BONUS!!! Whaha... my 1st time receiving bonus in my life! hahahha...

2008-01-08T08:17:00.000-08:00

I am attached to Northpoint for 2 weeks. Hmm... relax, not bad though... hehe...

Rainning heavily... and i really missed you like crazy. Hah, i dun wan to make any regret la... but... dots.

I really miss you, miss you, miss you.

:(

2008-01-01T23:37:00.000-08:00

I noe i had been day dreaming... thinking of those impossible. i hate myself.

我开始真的有点拾不得你
当我渐渐看到海洋靠近大地
我将要离开你
谢谢你留给我美好的回忆

2008-01-01T08:53:00.000-08:00

Exhibition at Vivocity is over...

which means,

we will have better sales, perhaps,
we will not have other people keep borrowing things frm, ya,
i will not be able to worry if i had to go up,
i will not be able to see some of the cute ones,
i will begin to miss some people, hehe.

Okay, yea... i think i will. Today last day den we have more conversation, but still not up to my expectation. I wan to leave down a deeper impression, and/or a better rs... Maybe im curious, maybe im really too...too much.. erm. I am useless, argh.

And thanks to louis, for creating some chances... %&@^$*

I just want someone who is able to accomapny and crack stupid jokes.. I really thanks my luck today, but its abit late...

I could say, i am regret that i reject and hate it to go up for the exhibition, not only i will know more friends, and make our relationship better, but also, to earn more extra pocket money. ARGH!

Shirley will be leaving to KL for attachment for 1 month... pretty sad, wonder who will be attach to our outlet for to take over her. Oh...

I love the 2008!! (at least the 1st day, hee).May every each day will be better.

I miss you.

2007-12-24T08:56:00.000-08:00

Dear readers, MERRY XMAS!!! So, have you guys receive lots of gifts? Have you guys enjoy counting down at eve? Hope you guys did...

Xmas meant... happiness and reunited... and its a day to show your loved one some appreciation. But, i got nothing. Im all alone... work and work... shack. Maybe its another emo day for me... although everything started okay...

But im looking forward for tmr... :)

Im not satisfied by my sales figure up to date. Wad happen???! Really admire Chole... she's the lucky girl in our mind.. Yea, she's cute too...

来不及许愿的流星
再怎么美丽也只能是曾经

那温热的牛奶瓶在我手中握紧
有你在的地方我总感觉很窝心
日子像旋转木马在脑海里转
出现那些你对我好的场景

2007-12-17T09:49:00.000-08:00

Hmm... complicated feelings, emotional again... izzit cuz im always like this, or is cuz of pms?

Was angry towards some1... about a 'missing' item, but luckily, found my me inside a so called rubbish bag. Hehe. Tat item cost $699 k, dun play play...

Okay, today im really pretty sicked. Talked for a whole day! I was being attached to Vivocity's SK exhibition, and im really very TIRED and STRESS!!!!

I missed my toilet trips, my meal, and of course i missed my original work place! I missed my phone calls, missed my collegues... and wad, they say they may want me to stay there till the whole event is over, which is the month end. OMG!! I dun wan!! Its so stress~~~!!!

Although over that side indeed attract more crowd, than my shop in basement. Although i will earn more $$$ workin in that exhibition. Although the praised and give good comments abt my performance....

But..... i have to give up and missed lots of stuffs. No more 10.45am working, no more chance to sit dwn, do other thingy... smsing, gossiping... OMG!! SO STRESS. And i have to wake up much earlier... yucks.

Wadever... jus feel like sharing some nice picx...

My name tag, the key ring is a gift frm Jolin for my performance in Mystery Shopper result.

The cute bear im talking about!!! Spend $500 to get this! While stock last!! And pls ask me. =p

Was together with SK for pretty long, 1 of my longest stay o... hee...

I miss you...

如果没有你
没有过去我不会有伤心
但是有如果还是要爱你

如果没有你
我在哪里又有什么可惜
反正一切来不及
反正没有了自已

I smile because i love you, i laugh because i have you...

2007-12-12T07:07:00.001-08:00

Omg...

3rd party, suicide, madness, depression, stress... I see wad i experienced in her... but i dunno hw to advise her.

Asking her to give up, or asking her to stay on? I really dunno how to advise her... God, please stop torturing couples n stop breaking them up. Fate shouldnt play them apart...

Slept for pretty long today... Xmas is coming... hohoho, time to receive present!!!

Ya, Xmas is a time to show your loved one how u valued him or how, by showing them ur appreciation...

But i felt somehow funny why some ladies want to exchange the thingy tat her bf buy for them. Meaning, we have a policy to exchange, if the item she find herself dont like... but WHY? Is a gift frm the heart... haizz...

I regreted.. i am missing my long hair~~~!!! :(

Maybe its time to share some sweet and happy thing for the day.

Called dear several times till my phone totally batt flat, and i couldnt reach him till 1pm, so i decided to go to his hse and find him... haha, and to my surprise, he was at my house carpark waiting!!! So surprise la... and silly him fall asleep there for 1 hour plus... lolz...

在日记里圈上每一页都有你好幸福的时光
对照第一次见面到此刻的温柔是不是都一样...

你说再苦也要跟我直到老
我说的每一个承诺会说到做到

2007-12-11T07:16:00.000-08:00

有人在读我的blog吗??

Hmm, another nice nice day... felt happy enough for my sales, my guandian angel helped me alot... :) Tmr can rest... hee...

6 things i dun like frm work:

Stress
No freedom
order me do things, and talk in the stupid tone
ppl giving me a boh chap face
busy-bodies
unfair treatment

5 things i hate in everyday life:

boringness!
irritating people
ppl frm certain race, certain country... im racist, oops
ppl who talk without thinking
inconsiderate ppl: talkin loud in bus n train, n those who dunno hw to teach their kids

Life is a journey, i want to start it off with eUuu, and end at the station of FOREVER with eUuu too...

2007-12-10T07:47:00.000-08:00

Today is a pretty emo day... felt super tired, argh... 6days work, of course tired...

Our target for this month is 40K, while i set myself 50k la... more com more better haha... Hopefully, this month luck will be by my side :)

Was unhappy last Sat, cuz i felt somethi is been very unfair. Hmm, not to mention, but, i will keep this in my heart, and i simply dislike them, the selfish bunch. So, that day my sales is like shit, really far far away frm my givings n my expectation.

But thanks to my guardian angel who finally came on Sunday, yesterday. Im a little heroine that day :)

Dunno when had i become a "counsellor" in BGR... Felt quite sad for her, but i could understand why he wanna leave her... but, WHY? Why can a guy say no feeling jiu no feeling? Why is always a girl left at the spot crying? Its damn cruel...

我愿为你去学习忘记自己
继续努力就活得鲜明安定

*i wan the bear... the 1 being given out as free gift... Its so cute...

2007-12-06T07:39:00.000-08:00

Today marked a very happy day with dear... I finally understand, wadever i gave and take, i had never regret, and i believe i wont... :) i jus wanna stay on to this, for the time i can and i have.

Saw several cases of relationship failure happening on my closest friends, and some rumors. Really feel that its a chance of fate to be together with the right one. Please treasure the person who treasured u before the person gives up!

爱情有十戒: 戒懒戒自悲戒闷戒爱现戒肤浅戒宅戒失恋戒烟戒永远没主见

2007-11-30T06:58:00.000-08:00

当世界不知不觉的变了
有时候我怀念以前的我作的梦
虽然远远的想像是一种快乐
拥有了同时也失去什麼
而眷恋原来会带来软弱

拥抱你的瞬间幸福整片蓝天
从第一次遇见我一直相信
能永恒到永远我们的爱不灭

2007-11-26T19:09:00.000-08:00

Okay, i admit i am stupid. Blehhh.

Made so many stupid n silly mistake, and even 1/2 day i also can come wrong time, come to work early. Buuuu.

Leading a borig life... shit...

2007-11-08T07:56:00.000-08:00

Okay, finally catch some time to update my blog.

November, a new month, a fresh me, but same, no money. hehe.

I believe Nov might be a happier, a better month for me, compare to past 2 months.... as i had already some good news in hand to share.

1st, my granny already discharge. :)

2nd, i was kena mystery shopper last month, and result came out... We are the 1st runner up in terms of store satisfatory, and we are ranking as 2nd runner up in terms of individually service n sales skills etc. Survey was marked me, shirley n jolin, with me approaching that mystery shopper first. yea, and i had made that person comfortable n happy... and its not only within SK alone, but also Sookee.... so, happy la...

And i had a little surprise gift frm my in-charge... also a nice treat of Pizza Hut by her. Nice though.... and its really sweet... We still hv 1 more to go, and that one will b a big feast!

3rd good news, my sales had picked up slowly, compare to the past two months, damn jialet... i guess my new heels, which makes me stand taller of 5cm plays a part... =)

Okay, and today is depavali... i felt happy!!! i had love!!! oh yea...

I noe im fat... :( this new hairstyle in deed doesnt suit me, but i just feel ok about it, cuz i dun have to spend time with my hair... jus comb n i can get off... but, i noe i cant be classified under the cateogy of "pretty", but i dun think i will be classified under "ugly" ba... ? Well, who cares, i already have someone... stupid.

2007-10-17T02:53:00.000-07:00

This time i guess i am really lost. I cant help, i dunno how to help her too. My granny is admitted to hospital, and she wans to go back. So am i, i wanna bring her back too. But my uncles (her sons) had never contact the hospital, neither they visited her. They intenting to just dump her there? She's out of her mind already. I dunno how to visit her, dunno how to face her n tell her about my uncles.

She dote me so much when i am young. But, is this the same old granny of mine? She is very agitated. The only thing i can do is to ask my uncle bring her back. But they seems to be unwilling and, dun care.

Wad can i do?

She cried n shouted, curse and scold. But does she noe how worry i am? noe how sad i am? I guess nope, she still scold me for my cryings.

I hate myself, so as wad my uncles did.

I have being thinking and hoping, to bring her out for nice food and buy her some new clothings. But, will this day come?

2007-10-12T03:59:00.000-07:00

BEFORE

AFTER

YEAH, ITS ME!!

2007-10-11T09:38:00.000-07:00

Many people alrdy left the company. I mean those i noe, and started to be quite friend. Pretty stress lately, abt my lousy sales results. Gosh, which is the real me in sales line.

Maybe both of us just dun click that much. Was waitingfor this day to come, but, never thought it results like this. Worst meet up he had ba... lol... Still again, sorryss...

I realise myself just like to dream, day dream. And even though i know by doing or allowing that thing to happen, i will get hurt, and not to be happy... but still, in my dream, i still goes for that thing. Funny tho...

Wonder if u guys noe, i had actually cut my hair short. And i mean, SHORT. The feedback i got, quite different. Collegues said its okay, fresh, sweet n more youthful. While, Melvin n Mark, the only two Ms give me negative comments. Okay, mark said it makes my face bigger, melvin said, its just FUNNY. Not ugly, not fat, but just feel weird... and advise me to do hair extension.

I GUESS ITS OKAY LA... no people will notice... =X

2007-10-05T08:31:00.000-07:00

Dear readers, im not okay. im seriously not ok.

The ending had approached.

I had said all the harsh words kept in my heart for months, and did the silliest thing.

1 week only 2 meet ups, and each only less than 2 hours. Yet, time is still spent for quarreling n picking up tears.

我离不开他, 也留不住他
心像空荡大厅, 一切就要蒸发
我离不开他, 风留不住沙, 我留不住他.
现在好想他

My philosophy is "money can buy happiness". So i like to spend money in dinners or lunch with my friends... even drinking. Even though next day i might end up no money. To me, happy is the most important word in my dictionary. But for him, its opposite. He's more realistic, i know.

我想离开, 可是我还期待...

我知道你我都没有错, 只是忘了怎么退后

Im stubborn, which makes everything worsen. I only able to react and wake up and be soft when i cool down, and realize that its too late. While u, only when 伤害 already 造成 den cool down.

"或许命运的签只让我们遇见,
只让我们相恋这一季的秋天."

2007-10-02T09:00:00.000-07:00

Had some discussion with my collegue william on relationship matters, and hv the strong urge to blog it.

hmmm... am i super sensitive? or its jus a common reaction of all? I guess it could b him being insensitive ba... how can i not be jealous if my bf send me hm first den another gal back? and i actually only sit at the back seat of his car, while another gal sit infront next to him? how can i not be mad if my bf brings another gal friend of his to my own friend gathering (eg bday party)? how can i dun feel disappointed if the vlalentine gift frm my bf is actually choosen by another gal? how can i not go crazy if i found another gal in my bf's hse (even if they didnt do anything)??

dear friends, relax. they're all examples that my collegue asked. my bf nv and i hope wont do the above.

i mean, to guys, maybe is NOTHING. The gal could b staying near him, so he send me back first, so he can directly go home... but my answer is NO. Even if they really hve nothing, jus slacking around at my bf's hse, my answer is also NO. I couldnt accept this!!!! These are all emotions of a gal, so as to shirley's agreement. But guys are just ignorant. =X

Yea, im full of imagination, and of course, to the negative... how i noe everything is so simple? i rather nothing happen, or i rather dunno.

Thus, if u hve any secrets or if u're doing somethi behind, please NEVER LET ME FIND OUT. Just let me continue acting a naive n silly role in this relationship.

And, we both agree that, having a ending on a relationship, 99% is due to 3rd party. Quarrels wont end a rs, same for the stupid excuse for having no more feelings. Sometimes, u'll get the 3rd party to be your partner, sometimes not.

Anyway, im fine... =) jus sharing my point of view... nothing to do with 3rd party in my rs... and i hope it wont.

PS:: Regards for dear friends out there. Please cherish the 1 u love n love you!!!

2007-10-01T08:43:00.000-07:00

1st day of the month. Children's day... saw so many kids going out with their daddy mummy.. quite envy them. hmmm...

Ok, had supper with dear n jane... Haha, nice Scissors Paper Stone that we had... But, the food is really alittle too much la huh... Im pretty happy... maybe...

Thanks for the care, the way u mind me going out with whoever whoever, the way u jealous, the way u concern abt everything. Louis is right, if he doesnt bother, den, its abit xxXXxxX already aso. Similarly, i do mind also.

Edelynn... who is edelynn. Edelynn is a girl... (hmm, rubbish again).

Nothing else. May i can carch up more sales tmr.. :)

I will never mention that date again!!! Dun worry!!! =p

MY BODY IS BIG, MY HEAD IS BIG. BUT MY HEART IS PRETTY SMALL.
U ARE PRETTY BIG SIZED =x SO, MY HEART ONI HV THE ENOUGH ALLOWANCE TO FIT U IN, AND NOTHING ELSE N NO ONE ELSE! SO DUN WORRY... MY SILLY DEARR... ^^^edelynn promise u ok?

2007-09-27T08:01:00.000-07:00

Finally, finally I blog, after 1 month? maybe? Finally watched the movie Secret.

Ok, pretty sweet but real touching... its realy an amaze that the secret lies behind. I was thinking that perhaps Xiao Yu is ghost n turned out to be quite scary... but, is rediculous, but its no longer an issue because all our thinking is IT IS SO~~~TOUCHING!

Watched Jolin's 特務J and 怕什麼 MV just now. They're linked. And it is so... nice! Its a must watch even you are not her fans. Jolin killed someone she loved and then realised that...

Okok, today finally off after several days of 'torture' n unhappiness. I simply hate and dislike her way towards me. Why must she always against me? How long can i stay on? One month time is our D&D... must spend money buy clothes liao... err...SIANZ

PS: Guang n janey, after that we could meet up for ESKIBAR! Lol... =)

A

2007-09-07T10:34:00.000-07:00

Today's our 13 months together. Hmm, went to Nihon Mura 日本村 at Tampinese for our dinner. Hehe.

Jus realise dear can be sweet at times (although he's unreasonable at times too). He only slept for 2 hours after 12 hrs of hardwork, and aft tat he'll be going to work again. :) thanks dear, although i always complain this n tat, but im very happy with wad you've done. Thanks so much.

Yup, we've went thru lots of difficulty, hardness n sadness, quarrels n patch up, scoldings n beatings n bitting (lol)... but we both noes tat aft a angry quarrel, or some harsh words, wen we finally cool down, we'll realise we cant leave each other. =) thanks god, for letting me meet this man.

But he stil need to improve la.. i wish my man will be PERFECT (impossible though.) =)

Perhaps beside our family members, boyfriend is the only one who see the clear character of us. Friends... hmm, u will treat them good la, so ur bad points may be hinted also.

This is the phone im using now..

This is a real phone. Not as old fashion n ugly as u thought. Its with camera n video functions, memory card, colour screen, n can excess to web! Only disadvantage is, it hv no bluetooth function.

From HK, you wont find another phone like urs. =)

I believe you'll be different as them. As you've already fuifil wad they promise me, as a surprise. Hence i believe, the love in the heart, 能做到就好, 不需要用嘴巴说.

Altho today was jus a simple buffet dinner, but im very happy... =)

Tomorrow gotta work liao... 4days in a row, n having sore throat n cold now... Mus listen to my future doctor friend eat some fruits to enhance vitamin C for my immune system liaoo.. lol...

*May tomorrow will be a good day. ~~~

2007-09-04T09:58:00.001-07:00

Was playing with this earlier. And found it pretty funny. Hmm, in case if the fonts aint clear for above, its always in my friendster.

-Ayumi Hamasaki 83%
-Ayu Matsuura 80%
-Ueto Aya 76%
-Joey Yung 74% (actually pretty much ppl say i look like her b4 liao)
-Helena Christensen 73%
-Fukada Kyoko 72% (2nd time being analyse i look like her, using diff picx)
-Phyllis Quek 73% (eee...i dun like her)
-Kana 70%

Other ppl aso say i look like this, look like that. Hehe. Im having a common-face man. Quite many say i look like Fish Leong, Joey Yung.... n lately hear frm Guang, i look like Rui En. Hmmm... i look like edelynn.

Time, pls fly faster. So that 'forever' is coming soon... n i can escape frm the hell.